Wrestling with God

Jacob Wrestles With God
22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two maidservants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok.
23 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions.
24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.
25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob's hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man.
26 Then the man said, "Let me go, for it is daybreak." But Jacob replied, "I will not let you go unless you bless me."
27 The man asked him, "What is your name?" "Jacob," he answered.
28 Then the man said, "Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, [e] because you have struggled with God and with men and have overcome."
29 Jacob said, "Please tell me your name." But he replied, "Why do you ask my name?" Then he blessed him there.
30 So Jacob called the place Peniel, [f] saying, "It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared."
31 The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, [g] and he was limping because of his hip.
32 Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob's hip was touched near the tendon.


in some versions it is said that jacob wrestles with an angel of God...so this is basically what happened, Jacob gets word that his brother esau and several hundred of his men were planning to invade Mahanaim. so what he does is he sends several of his men b4 him to butter his brother with gifts hoping that his heart will soften b4 he actually meets him and that night wen he was actually confronting Gods angel he refused to let him go till he blessed him to the extent that the angel knocked his hip socket out and he still refused to let go...such was his persistence...and then God gave him a new name Israel-for he was persistant...several verses b4 jacob utters a prayer stating his unworthiness of obtaining a land with no property but a staff...this is how i behave sometimes not knowing wat to do or what to expect often with fear and personal judgements...instead of doubting i wish sometimes i can skip the fear and doubt part and just go to the part where i completely surrender and well wrestle for wat i want...many of us, while persuing Gods kingdom face challenges and trials but wen we don't let go of God i tell u the reward is far more amazing than the small setbacks u get...give you an example, when the docs said that i could not do sports for abt 2 years due to my injury i often questioned God like "why is tis happening to me?" and all but then little that i did realise my upper body strength was weak back then, so moving in the wheel chair build my upper budy naturally so much so that wen i went to jc i could do like 14 pullups from a previous "0"...and well the constant wrestling came to an end when i got my full marks for NAPHA and yeah...think about it...i had a screw, an injury that no other person could haf come back from and yeah the pain was always there but it was nothing compared to the pain if i had not wresteled with God and settled on a wheelchair...

so yeah...life gets pretty crazy for me but i am glad, really Glad that i can always bounce off His hands wenever i fall...thats a relationship that can only treasure more and more each day!

God bless!