a finite whine...

and so i said it...been wanting to say it for a couple of weeks now and i did...it did not come out natural or the way i planned it but it did...

i tried wishing it away knowing that it could only bring me more pain and yet it still happened...the insecurities, the guilt as well as the crushed hope...might all come back to haunt me again...

if only i had something that lasted, something real, something eternal rather than a few days, weeks or months or even worse, years....all i could wish for right now is that you are happy...coz if youre happy i am happy...

saints vs geng malaysia

it doesnt happen all too often...my legs felt great..just need more game time...was a timely defeat as we went down 2-1 to gm but it was a waking up call...more to come...more to expect...its just gonna get better...

i love this game!

cheers!

whats new

and so its been some time since i wrote something personal here..

well, my weekend was a blast...i settled quite abit of my curiosity...mainly in ikea...bought myself a new bed...a really good one that i assume is not gonna give me probs till i end my course...besides the orthopaedic frame is meant to be good for my back and posture...not only is this new bed longer and wider (for my 6 ft frame) its also thicker, cozier and well, as always, orangier...leave it at that...when i sleep for the 1st tym on it tonite i will know what the new bed is all about...

and well my trip to ikea was not only rewarding emotionally and physically but it also showed me how smart some creatures get...try a dog taking a metro...ha..its just sleeping btw...it knows wen to stop coz well, canines are known for their heightened senses ryt...?

thats all for now lah i guess...gonna get back to my books...lotsa catching up to do...

God bless ya ol!

nba preview 2008/09

a lebron team is a champion team...the year of the king...big 3 vs lebron...u know who jumps higher,shoots higher and dunks higher than anyone else....

i know youre expecting a performance from the bi 3 in lakers with kobe in the middle of that, but check out oden..expect nothing les than a show...

so thats baically the 2 videos i managed to get...another game that i wouldnt miss is the bucks bulls game...a beautifully pieced team vs a young team perfect to make history...no comments on this one except its gonna be pretty tight but a high scoring game withboth teams focussing more on offence rather than defence.

judging...

you know when you open a new book the first thing you probably notice is the publisher...nope...why is it that wen we go for a book or randomly open a book after probably reading the synopsis we just flip the page to something in the middle to impress us and if it doesnt it is either left behind or not even given a second thought...well its a normal act i guess...even when we deal with people we can see ourselves juging others from the little that we see...its like opening the middle part of the book and assuming tat the rest of the book is gonna be like that...the story migh change...just like ppl do and well there might be more to that story or that person that you could miss out...

so the next time u wanna judge people...think twice...or at least a little longer.just think what it would be like to be judged...give others a chance and you might see that its joyful to see new things in people,in things and in every path in our lives...

take care then,

PS...i am not responsible if i ter-named someone...its just a random scribble in my jotter.

happy deepavali!

happy deepavali to all my hindu friends out there...

i just finished cleaning my bathroom and toilet and stoveand washing machine and i am totally exhausted...nevertheless i did check out the highlights of the last few preseason games...i tell u lebron is on fire..!

its like nobody in the world can stop him...check out these videos at http://www.nba.com/video/channels/top_plays/2008/10/25/nba_20081024_aotn.nba/index.html?player=whatsnew i tried downloading the video to upload it here but some copyright issues made it impossible...anywau u can still check the videos here...if this is what the cavaliers haf planned even aft team US came home with a thrashingly easy olympic gold medal...the title shld be theirs...wade would be the perfect fit but nevertheless the season is open to a few teams...the besides the cavaliers,the celtics would be next contender for the title...i mean they were the title holders right...spurs definitely...the hornets...bucks...and bulls..yes bulls guys they are coming back and i can feel it....never the less whoever thinks lakes had it have got it all wrong...they had it...they gotta change their play to win simple double team kobe...its that easy...

playes to watch are of coz besides lebron james would be kevin garnett,chris paul, dirk novwitsky(had a bad season but the guy has his way of playing that i simply strive for), camelo anthony and yes my man dwayne wade...he is getting it there...now other teams just needa watch him...wen he bring his A+ game it always seems like other players are a level below him...

howard with a little maturing will be the best magic centre ever and jason kidd..i bet he got a few good tricks up his sleeve as well...

and aft all that kobe. kobe, kobe...where can i put you...? he played awesome last season but his teamates were never able to live up to his athletesism...if only pau or lamar had even a tenth of his agility last season they would haf had it...

still statistically speaking they will finish top for during the season but the post season finals mite see them leave early...

thats all to early to say right now...

lets see what happens in the NBA...a place where 80% of the predictions go wrong...somehow the ball is rounder in the NBA than EPL or somthing...

haf a good day then...

Happy deepavali again!

God bless ya ol!

nothingness

the vendeta of my deepest thoughts
the sudden rush of a soul's creed
that once lived
is suddenly not even dead...
its gone
only to be found,
picked up by a passer-by
knowing not of willows or lillies
or the spring emerged butterflies
the thought reemerges
as a twilight
as a doom...
as what we all call
NOTHINGNESS!

not so innocent after all...

so last nite there was a fire drill...well not really a drill...it was the real thing...till now i dint know what happened but concluding the information from the various sources a girl had lefther iron on on the carper till it went burning...but the power dint get cut off coz the ELCB wasnt working anyway...it got 7 excited fire hydrants to the hostel in like 10 minutes and well ppl were kinda excited as well...nobody was worried about what was happening or anything but i did see several camera's go off in the night...ppl even make-upd just to come down for the evecuation order and i was thinking...what kind of crack addicts do we have here...

anyway i got back to open my mail and as usual try to get rid of the junk forwarded mails but i stumbled upon a mail that caught my attention...this vieo is pretty cool...well, all crime pays...enjoy!

maths...

kinda got this email a few days ago...found it really interesting...read it all the way till the end...!

Beauty of Mathematics !!!!!!!

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111

9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?

And look at this symmetry:

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111 = 12345678987654321



Now, take a look at this...


101%



From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:



What Equals 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?

Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?

We have all been in situations where someone wants you to
GIVE OVER 100%.

How about ACHIEVING 101%?


What equals 100% in life?


Here's a little mathematical formula that might help
answer these questions:


If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.


If:


H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K

8+1+18+4+23+ 15+18+11 = 98%


And:

K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E

11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%


But:

A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E

1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%



THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:



L-O-V-E-O-F- G-O-D

12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101%


Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will
get you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

It's up to you if you share this with your friends & loved ones just
the way I did..

Have a nice day & God bless!!

i just wanna be with you...

when it comes down to this,
all i wanna know is,
do you still remember the sunset
the voices of the sea,
the way your heartbeat beats slightly faster than mine
or the way u always sound calmer than me

it was a morning i wish i didn't wake up to
something felt weird
from the voice inside my heart
music wasnt music
and noise was just noise
i never had that feeling
and yet it kept knocking
when i opened, it was a mail
one that had come centuries early
the thought of even hearing the first words on it
keeps me reincarnated with guilt
all it said was one thing
i made a mistake
my heart was in the wrong place

nevertheless,
i do remember your sweet smile,
your calm voice,
the way ur eyes shrink when you're happy
or when it widens when you're up to mischief
or even when its entrely focused when its the speedometer
your hair often tucked neatly behind your ears
and the ears yeah i can never forget them
perfectly aside your cherry blossomed cheeks
and the cute tinkly nose

just wished you leaned a little longer,
its now time for you to go
but i wish the last few minutes lasted forever
i just wannna be with you...with you!


-duntellya inc.-

saints in action

so it all ended last night...the wait, the build up and the talks. many have expected the return of the RFL.not only futsal goers and players but basically everyone. anyone who wanted action got it last night.

so we are a new team pieced together. to play the opening game was an honour, despite what others think but nevertheless although not impressive we delivered what we were set out for...
overall it was an interesting game for me as i battled with my fitness and injury and even doubted my appearance that night...but thank God it all went well...now i have 2 weeks to rid the inconsistencies and well play my favourite game...

teamates like pk,toh,agni,siva,prem who supported me in my injured state, and the fans out there...they deserve better...

so lets see where the next game brings us...

cheers

storm...

ok the thing is this fella doesnt have a name yet but it colour kinda reminds me of a storm so i am calling it storm for now...besides it is generally very quiet but does things suddenly so yeah stormy fella...had so much of fun with this fella yesterday...belongs to roopa but she is planning to give it away...so if all goes well storm here will hav a new home in a few days...

kinda want a puppy...but the thing is training it all over again is gonna remind me of sam and ally and yeah jacky that fella...guess don't do too well with breaking up with my pets so i shal wait till i haf my own place then the dozens of dogs, crocodile and snake ponds and all will follow...till then its either rabbit satay or friends pets...