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2010-06-10T04:19:00.000-07:00

on june the 8th

2009-06-07T23:50:00.001-07:00

it seems like forever since i last wrote here. there is so much i wanna tell, ideas are exploding out of my head but considering that i gotta head to uni in a short while i will write as much as i can...

so Man Utd lost the finals and cavaliers are out, surprisingly, thought i am a little disappointed i enjoyed those games because both teams really out up a great fight. honestly in the magic/cavaliers series it could have gone either way...despite what everone thinks, lebron is still the best ball player in the world coz he does magic with the little he has.

not even a press conference with him till now. i know he is disappointed and all, like this year was his year and all but i am sure he will get over it. "i'm 100% behind you bro!" he is so gonna come back stronger, more determined and more hyped up for his first nba title. nobody in the league wants it more than him right now.so yeah all the best to the cleveland cavaliers for the coming season. if you guys are not catching up with the finals, the series is curently going lakers way 2-0. i think magic should be able to win it...their 3 point play system is really deadly. really hate te way they knocked cleveland out but i respect what they did...they brought a whole new stule to basketball...they have proven that a young team with no stars like lebron james and kobe bryant can still possibly win a championship

manchester united has a good uphill walk. Ronaldo must have his ego beaten and realises now its not about him but the team. all i can say is that he would have done much worse in Real, no offense real madrid fans. well i see the prospects of an even deadlier team next season...

cant wait to go back..just days away from my flight home. i really need the breather...miss my guys back home.miss church, miss soccer, the innitial d and daytona, the ais kacang and char kweh teow, the bike and the skates and above all i miss swimming!

alryt then back to work
haf a great day all!
God bless!

happy 1 month sweetheart!

2009-01-28T03:57:00.000-08:00

happy 1 month baby!
i love you with all my heart!
Mwuah!!

a really promissing president!

2009-01-28T03:00:00.000-08:00

sports at its latest...

2009-01-13T08:43:00.000-08:00

well i really gotta get back to my books..but thereare so many videos to talk abt...lebron,rooney,ronaldo and giggs...and yeah this play is utter genious...i have seen it done in my team back in cjc soccer b4...seen it in important games but never this perfect with the refree's whistle and all...and the ref disallowed it...come on ppl man utd is just a brilliant team and there are those who chose to cheat themselves...enjoy the vid...!

all the best to those sitting for exams!

december 17th highlights

2008-12-21T15:50:00.000-08:00

it was so had to get the video from the nba website...need to find a new software to download online videos as real player hangs all the time!

lebron is the king!

i say it again...he is the king!

if ur a basketball lover, no matter which team u support u cant deny the fact that lebron single handedly dominated the timberwolves..wanted the video with the no look pass and the random jumpshots from all over the 'd' and the 3 point line...and even managed to fool arnd and still come up with the flight and dunk of the year...at least the best 2( the best would be post season this year wen he sliced thru kevin garnet and i dunno whu else and dunked as if they were cheese slices on my sandwich!)

a short video highlight of all the games but seriously if you can just visit http://www.nba.com/video/ and find that lebron game and you will know what i am talkin about...

haf a nice nite!
God bless!

what i mean by what i do..

2008-12-21T14:34:00.001-08:00

was really agitated the whole day...firstly i got hacked real bad...secondly i couldnt play all the songs that would normally make me feel better...nevertheless seeing 'her' really calmed me down like 10 notches...something even kian's whole box of chocolates couldn't do...

when i make fun of you its coz i care, and you mean something to me...i can be bothered to come up with "wheelchair club" jokes if i wasnt close to you and no matter what happens i always have my friends back..and definitely have yours as well...

"whats wrong with me...?"...i ask myself this question very so often and well if i have a friend who missed a scoring opportunity, the normal thing to do is go and encourage him to to get up and try again...but isnt there another way of doing that? like "wats wrong with u bro...?" it would encourage him in a whole new way...of coz u cant say that to someone you hardly know...words like that can only be used on someone you are close to...and it doesnt really matter if your friend is a guy or a girl...thats what i believe...but i might have been wrong all this while...might have hurt alot of people in the process...the thing is i did put myself in her shoes and yet i see it as something normal...which brings me to another thing i learned, painfully...nobody is the same...if you have 100 friends none of them will react exactly the same way to a particular situation...all of them have totally different ways to react....almost similar , well some might argue but seriously i have seen enough to know almost similar is still not similar...

For everything i have out you through...i am sorry~just hope you understand that i will never do or say anything to hurt you or make you feel less comfortable about who you are...

i know what i did was wrong for thinking of even the slightest possibility of the existance of 2 people who think the same way...that has to change...nevertheless there are some things we guys are often mistaken for or taken for granted..

1)we are just as soft as you...so what hurts you naturally hurts us as well
however,

2)we are not as strong as you are, coz we have this thing called pride which makes us wanna deal with things alone, most of the time taking wrong solutions or long winded paths.

3)we might be wrong about certain things but please, we cant be wrong about everything...

4)when we say we are sorry we mean it but i dunno why very so often this is mistaken as something like a routine...i know many ppl out there who find it hard to even say sorry when they are in the wrong, but there are some of us who are willing to accept the mistake bcoz even if we do not understand it then, one day, when we actually sit down and think we will...

5)lastly, nobody's perfect...all my life i have been judged by people for things i am not..it gets my blood boiling but well i have learned my lesson to not let my temper get the better of things...so yeah judged or not judged i am being recognised as a person i am not...i wouldnt want anyone to change that...as this is one thing that separates my brothers and sisters from my friends.

sometimes i take things for granted, sometimes i say or do things i do not understand but if there is one person that has actually made me think and reflect so much about myself, it would be YOU, so please dont judge me just yet. what i said the other day, i meant every word of it.

love the little things you do...
want you to keep doing it
for all its worth
i wana be 'the one' for you
take care of you,
listen to you,
laugh at your jokes,
hold you in my arms,
wipe away your tears,
making sure they never come again,
be there in every circumstance,
even if its just to watch you smile for a second
i would give it my all...

life as it is...

2008-12-19T17:05:00.000-08:00

and so i haf pending colloques 4 for anat, 2 for physio and yeah thats about it...planning to finish 3 next week and the other 3 the week after...if can go for more next week the better...

i am kinda at peace now...i dunno why but well just had wendy's mushroom sauce and i can tell u...its a killer!!!! i went over for a wile to like kacau them and guess what giju ofered me some bread and i was like " no thanx bro...i am heading off to bed" and then well i stayed till i saw the botom of the soup...it was really really good...

looking forward to the party later...got lotsa things to cook but more importantly going for my run...its been a month since i had a good decent run so this is good...not so much to clear my head like i always do but this time its mainly for fitness coz well i am getting more and more unfit...my standing broadjump the other day was only 250cm...so yeah got alot to work on that...

gotta be able to dunk soon...been so long ddi...now i cant even remember if i was ever able to dunk..but well...ppl like darren would remind me of how i used to slam...gotta get that back,...so yeah starts now...

still cant sleep...and yeah i let my heart out tonyt...thats why the relief i guess...the feeling of vulnerability...its over coz now i can know for sure..

take care then all...

nite
God bless!!

bus drivers in moscow...

2008-12-17T13:09:00.000-08:00

most of the time they are blur..nice and well, convenient...today i kinda met a totally different species, a retarded one that wanted to get me killed.

so i was going to strella with 'her' and well of coz we went by bus...so our stop came and we wanted to get off the bus and the driver started to drive off just as i was about to step out...what does that fella think...? it certainly wasnt a bus ride in india or something but wat was going through his mind...did he have to rush somewhere...? can he make 8 rounds of his shift instead of seven coz i really wanna know what made him think he owned us...kinda got my knee twisted as i had already placed one foot on on the ground when it started to take off...thank God 'she' was alright...wouldnt haf forgiven myself if i had got one scratch on 'her'.

but then again Ira did say that guy was mentally retarded as he had always been like that...how do these ppl know the bus drivers...? just from taking bus rides daily...? oh well i prefer to walk and its surprising also coz i have taken the bus to uni more times the this month than i have ever taken since i came to moscow...so yeah there it stands...nothing beats a quiet peaceful walk where you are not rushing or struggling to squeeze in...get your chain of thoughts in order...

the weather now is oh well how do i put it...?AWESOME!...
coz it snows when i am asleep and its clear when i am going out...the weather forecast applies to everyone but me and well the wind though 40 km/h has a way of hitting everyone else and totalli avoiding me...so yeah the weather is perfect for me...just hope the secret snow find its way to pile up coz I WANNA GO SNOWBOARDING!!! cant wait for that...

gonna head off to bed now...a little ice on my knee should help but i really hope all will be well tomorrow. have ppl to face have myself to hit...reallly hard. need my knee to do all of it...

nite and God bless!!
cheers!

insensitive...

2008-12-17T12:55:00.001-08:00

yeah when that word comes into your mind very often at least one person will appear in your mind...today i kinda made 3 ppl think of me like that...and the most painful thing was to hear 'her' indirectly say it...i can be ignorant of others feelings at times and well...the thing is i never mean most of the things i say...its kinda a gesture of sinical remark to show care and attention coz well i always thought a sinical remark is better than totally ignoring someone...right...? at least from where i kam from thats how it is...

feel really bad...dunno why i keep doing it, knowing i am gonna hurt people and in the process hurt myself worse...i guess its my defense mechanism...thats how i have shieldd myself from pain all this while, looking at things around me, the best way is sometimes to totally recede allowing yourself a time to escape the situation where you will even have to put yourself into someones shoes...

the pain ...well i like it...my whole life has been full of it...i just wish i can take away others' coz well wat i go through is really nothing nevertheless i never wanna see ppl around me get hurt...and if i am the cause of that pain, i dunno where else to have faith that i can somehow take every1's pain away...even i its a soul that i hurt, a tiny little soul it still hurts...

insensitive...yeah i know it spells out my name clearly...for all its worth and all i am i am really, truly, deeply sorry...if i have hurt anyone, even unconsciously...especially 'you'

have a nice night!

tales of winter

2008-12-15T05:44:00.000-08:00

its been a while since i last wrote here...i dunno never really like to write personal stuff and well let everyone know about it coz well, there is a reason its called 'personal stuff'.

so its like 5 pm here now but it sure feels like abt 8pm in malaysia...the days are shorter hence all the reason to suffer while getting up, procrastinate getting outta bed as well as snoozing the one fella that can get you to school on time...it isnt half as cold as last year though. nevertheless ppl keep telling me..."its moscow, the worst is yet to come..." just hope it stays this way, coz well the weather is great now...anw colder and its gonna get uncomfortable....stll waiting for the snow to secretly come and lay itself so that i can go snowboarding...and then dissapear, without melting leaving the streets dry so that i can move without the conscience of stepping into a puddle of mud...

i love it here...i really do...very little can i find to prove this is less than home and its like a whole new exciting place once you learn to love it...the people, well...they are the same everywhere...there are warm chaps who would never stop making your day brighter and well snobbish little pricks who are ever-ready to bring you down with them..

i tried so much to hold on to something for so long and letting it go was the best thing thats happened to me in a long time...its like a breather...but even better with the joy
'she' brings into my life...i want this new step i take to work...its like i know how it makes me feel, i enjoy it and yet i still wanna put my doubts...she is special to me...this place in my heart that i can save for noone but her...

that aside...my weekend was a blast that passed in 2 seconds...i dunno what happened...it just passed so fast i wasnt able to even catch it except for the little moments of lunch at morae, watching a classic, totally random movie 'scary movie', and well a little studying to sum up a complete weekend of a 2nd year...

and yeah its Ana's b'dae today! happy birthday gal!
if i get the pics will show you who my little sister, the star queen is...next time...hopefully, soonish...

cheers,
God bless ya ol!

not feeling tired...

2008-12-12T15:06:00.001-08:00

innitially i was really looking forward to the weekend to catch up with sleep...but then again i never got new blockmates, so yeah stuck with these noisy ppl for i dunno how long more.telling them to shut up once or twice or even once every 20 minutes isnt enough...these people can go on talkng the whole night, i duno about what or who but tey will be talking non stop, occasionally wetting the seater but yeah basically soundblasting the whole block till about 6 am. this routine has been going on for quite some time and these people never ever heard of the term of shut up! or consideration before...so yeah leave it as it is...

but its like 2.20 am here and i am still not tired...have to wale up by 6 am for prayer meeting followed by handball practice and all and still i do not feel like sleeping...it could be the thought of anat exams coming up in 32 days time or the fact that i have 4 pending colloques and 2 razkazes in total...nah it cant be the things in my mind coz well i am never bothered by it...time will find itself solving things by itself as time passes, but yet there is this inner turmoil...something that i wish i can say it out here...the fact that i cant let myself to type those words clearly confirms my reason for a sleepless friday night...

wish it can all be solved like an equation...i gave it my best shot and yet i wasnt enough...now,well i have to give it all i've got and something more, or else i am gonna lose out in pleasing my mind, body and soul and well, i will never accept the fact that there are 12 greater pyramids that made its name next to the sandcastle...so yeah...if all i've given is not enough, its time to give it something i have never brought on the platter...my heart...

gonna try to settle for tossing and turning till i knock out, besides, i just love my bed...

good day folks!

a nice pleasant song...

2008-12-08T12:03:00.000-08:00

well pauline sent me this song a couple of hours ago and i thought its worth sharing..
so yeah...enjoy...

fitness so far

2008-12-05T10:02:00.000-08:00

so my injuries are at a minimum now...slightly strained wrist due to basketball and a back muscle pull from benchpress earlier and well another ankle strain due to last weeks game...besides that i am all good...working really hard on my fitness now coz well if i can do 2 sports for volgo, why not right...?if i can play my 110% in both sports...

so yeah if i count my napha test scores...well my platinum score is still a long shot...think sit ups are at about 35 perminute now, pullups are at 7, 2.4 timing i dunno maybe an estimate of 11 mins...(not gonna hit my 8.55 anytime soon...maybe ever) shuttle run shld be the same or better considering the suicides and fitness drills we have been doing in basketball training...mite even get an under 9s timing...ha standing broadjump...definitely better...in other words i feel great about anaerobic fitness...but the aerobic, gotta work on it..

and yeah about aerobic workout, how am i gonna do it if the coach says that i am like the smallest player there...he wants me to bulk up a little,,,thats why the bench press came in today. i rather haf small well toned muscles than big bulky muscles cos well later they are super hard to get rid off wen ur like 40 and everything starts to strech and sag...so yeah happy the way it is now...running gives the best full body workout still, dan and binh would agree...

been a long time since i dunked...the good old days, but with my coach pushing me like this...i say will be able to in 2 months...? think they haf a holiday camp thing going on...really dunno what they talk about esp wen its all in russian...ah well if ned robinson can dunk over spud web at 5 ft 9 inches...come on man a 6 ft dude shld be able to dunk with less efford...ha

still cant believe i am the smallest person in the team...if fariq is there then its 2nd smallest...ha, sorry bro...

thats about it lah...still holding on to the glucose and protein supplements and yeah the cratin...if the time comes for me to go synthetic i will have to, but we all know wat happened the last time yeah...?lets not talk about it any further

sports...the only other thing that keeps the world sane...
the currency...sweat!

haf an awesome weekend...!
God bless!

P.S. druncos...please have mercy tomoro nite...cheers!

!...traeh

2008-12-04T11:27:00.001-08:00

"the heart has reasons, that reasons cannot tell"-oth

very often i tend to overlook,we all tend t overlook the fact that our heart makes the right choices all the time...a young boy might have loved his pet so much that nothing it can do can ever make him change his mind.even if it went wild and decided to bite him or nibble on his best cap, he would still think about what it means to him...no matter the damage, the fact that that little kid loved his pet, lets say pup so much will always cause him to reason forgiveness over hatred...and it gets me thinking..how often haf i trusted my heart instead of my head?
-only twice in my life and one of those times have caused me never to trust it again...at least wen i go with my head i get that few minutes of satisfaction, relief or maybe breathing space...nevertheless my heart tells me to believe otherwise...i wish a long run can clear my head if i get a chance to even go for one!

sometimes we find ourselves in a maze in an absolute mist of things, but the solution is very often right there...next to you, or within you.after taking the plunge you realise you should have done that or should have seen that but all along there it was right there beside you. so what keeps us from reasoning...?hmmmh...? i believe we hafta say hello to our head once more, a little spice of ego, coupled with unsurpressable pride is what kept us from achieving what we sought out for in the first place...

and then there is a question of the heart...all i have heard b4 is the heart lets us love people, lets us forgive, lets us move on...nobody told me about betrayal...doubtful anchor decisions...and most unforgivingly heartbreak when ALL comes apart...all i really want is that one right decision that will piece it together, give reason to live, give reason to die, give reason to go through it all...coz if at the end of the day, if i never find that missing piece, i dun wanna be drowned...not yet, not by my own heart...so its there i know...still finding a reason for it to continue beating...still finding that missing piece,,,still giving reasons instead of finding answers...

'i am falling for someone,
trying so hard to resist it,
but its hard...

i am not in control anymore,
i want t so much
and yet i am thinking,
is this the one?
will it last...?
do we feel the same?

my heart is too fraculent
to be taken, given and broken again,
i hope i can wish it away,
this feeling,.
but; it simply will not go

i am vulnerable
i haf fallen for this someone
i have fallen into the
trap of love or merely
just love
pure and sensitive
just a heart
filled with
love!'

-duntellya-

learn to love...

2008-11-30T02:57:00.000-08:00

you know the strangest things keep happening...its like the more i hate something or the more i resisit something the more He would challenge me to do it,get close to it...and the things i love...very often i hafta let it go...i guess its a way of saying 'i am committed' but its alsa kinda a way he sets my path right...i know what i want, iknow whats best for me but still, He knows wats even better for me...thats what amazes me the most...i hardly remove my posts, actually i only did it once or twice...cant really remember. but well i am kinda challenged to love the people i blogged about the last time...

it started with a smile, and a handshake...and now i guess we're friends...and now i see, they arent so bad after all...the toilet seats are clean, they irritate me less and well the toiled is still always wet but i guess its gonna come to end soon...

whats with me man...how did this happen...i mean whats happening to me...? anaand would probably think wats wrong with me...am i nuts or what...but i know its the right thing...nobody deserves to be hated...a little love wont hurt...besides, i am grudgeless...and happy!

egyptians!!!

2008-11-25T13:23:00.000-08:00

practically dumbasses!!
not to offend anyone in particularbut the 2 dumbest ppl and possibly 4 are egyptians...come on man if peeing all over the toilet seater isnt enough and using toiletries that do not belong to you, and using our cleaning equipment and damaging it, ruining the shower curtains not forgetting causing a total mess everyday which eventually resulted in the destruction of our block floor...these guys are justpractclly dumb!

anaand i still persistent on yelling at them but i totally gave up...if giving them a shooting lesson isnt enough what more do they want...?
i wonder is this what they doin their country...in their homes...not getting your own stuff and using others and damaging it and totally acting as if everything was alright and playing plain innocent as if the heavensopened up for them...

come on man...how cm people be that inconsiderate...! gts me boiling...its practicaly eryday that we hafta scold them!

if the cleanliness isnt it the noise...omg the noise i tell u...i wonder what can 2 guys be doing at 3 am in the morning till the walls go shaking...u can imagine for yourself eh...dah lah budak budak ni pengotor lagi bising macam meriam bom! bom! bom!....teruk lah...and they can be so dumb...afterflooding the whole corridoor can still affort to ask me why the door cant open after kicking the washing machine pipe so conveniently...kesian kawan i shalu cantik kat bawah...juzt bot a new linonium for these monkeys to nicely give it a heavenly rinse...

point dumb talking about these guys...it helps talking about it here...wish i had anaands patience...i so wanna terminate them!!!

chill guys...this is as bad as my nervous breakdown gets...all better now...not gonna go arnd killing people...

haf a good nite ya ol!

a meaningful story..

2008-11-24T00:49:00.000-08:00

Take my Son

A wealthy man and his son loved to collect rare works of art. They had everything in their collection, from Picasso to Raphael. They would often sit together and admire the great works of art.When the Vietnam conflict broke out, the son went to war. He was very courageous and died in battle while rescuing another soldier. The father was notified and grieved deeply for his only son.About a month later, just before Christmas, there was a knock at the door. A young man stood at the door with a large package in his hands.He said, 'Sir, you don't know me, but I am the soldier for whom your son gave his life. He saved many lives that day, and he was carrying me to safety when a bullet struck him in the heart and he died instantly.He often talked about you, and your love for art.' The young man held out this package. 'I know this isn't much. I'm not really a great artist, but I think your son would have wanted you to have this.'The father opened the package. It was a portrait of his son, painted by the young man.

He stared in awe at the way the soldier had captured the personality of his son in the painting. The father was so drawn to the eyes that his own eyes welled up with tears.. He thanked the young man and offered to pay him for the picture. 'Oh, no sir, I could never repay what your son did for me. It's a gift.'The father hung the portrait over his mantle. Every time visitors came to his home he took them to see the portrait of his son before he showed them any of the other great works he had collected.The man died a few months later. There was to be a great auction of his paintings

Many influential people gathered, excited over seeing the great paintings and having an opportunity to purchase one for their collection.On the platform sat the painting of the son The auctioneer pounded his gavel. 'We will start thebidding with this picture of the son. Who will bid for this picture?'There was silence.Then a voice in the back of the room shouted, 'We want to see the famous paintings. Skip this one.'But the auctioneer persisted. 'Will somebody bid for this painting. Who will start the bidding? $100, $200?'Another voice angrily. 'We didn't come to see this painting. We came to see the Van Gogh's, theRembrandt's. Get on with the real bids!'But still the auctioneer continued. 'The son! The son!

Who'll take the son?'Finally, a voice came from the very back of the room. It was the longtime gardener of the man and his son. 'I'll give $10 for the painting.' Being a poor man, it was all he could afford.'We have $10, who will bid $20?''Give it to him for $10. Let's see the masters.' '$10 is the bid, won't someone bid $20?'The crowd was becoming angry. They didn't want the picture of the son. They wanted the more worthy investments for their collections. The auctioneer pounded the gavel. 'Going once, twice, SOLD for $10!'A man sitting on the second row shouted, 'Now let's get on with the collection!' The auctioneer laid down his gavel. 'I'm sorry, the auction is over..' 'What about the paintings?'

'I am sorry. When I was called to conduct this auction, I was told of a secret stipulation in the will. I was not allowed to reveal that stipulation until this time. Only the painting of the son would be auctioned. Whoever bought that painting would inherit the entire estate, including the paintings. The man who took the son gets everything!'God gave His son 2,000 years ago to die on the cross.

Much like the auctioneer, His message today is: '

The son, the son, who'll take the son?'Because, you see, whoever takes the Son gets everything

FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, WHO SO EVER BELIEVETH, SHALL HAVE ETERNAL LIFE....THAT' S LOVE

God Bless.

cavaliers at its peak

2008-11-22T22:16:00.000-08:00

and so it i said that a team with 20 wins in a row a season will never go on to win the nba title...let me tell u a secret...its not true...cos this year its gonna happen...the cav's already haf their 8th straight win in the bag beating the likes of other title contenders in their own home court...and everyone knows nobody can beat the cavs at home...not even the celtics or lakers...so yeah this year is the year of lebron james...all he needed was someone to draw attention away from him and we can see mo and delante shinning now...i dunno how he can keep bringing his 'a' game night after night...his passion, his determination is what i am striving for...

talking about the king, we are having our 1st official basketbal tournament here in moscow since i arrived...dunno what its gonna be like or how rough its gonna be but if we play with our hearts i think its not a problem...ppl say ' for love of the game' and i say 'play your hearts out'...the difference is the latter will always derive results while the former will always derive fun no matter what the result is...so yeah it gets me thinking...a little of both would be a cocktail combination...

not feeling too good right now...was having a fever last nyt...and played my futsal league with a splitting migraine...today its a little better...had my ice bath which is seeing my legs more rejuvenated so i just hope i can play my best later...dun wana let my team down...

need all Your strength to play today!

team "hats-off"

2008-11-19T03:10:00.000-08:00

so we had a pretty good game today...everything came together...probably that extra pass on that day will make the difference...the ability to score while running the clock down is what makes a really good team...being calm and relaxed with maximum adrenaline pumping will be the difference on sunday...really hoping for the best now...we never played together b4 a month ago but somehow i feel the chemistry building really fast...just hope this is gonna be enough...

i keep saying i am not a centre...never haf been but they all wanna claim tht i am...so we will see what happens wen i dont play centre...

so people in moscow...remember to catch the action this sunday morning....see a team of akmal,billy,remy and fariq come together for the very 1st time...what happens, only the cool dude up in the clouds knows...

cya then.
haf a great day!

a finite whine...

2008-11-13T14:18:00.000-08:00

and so i said it...been wanting to say it for a couple of weeks now and i did...it did not come out natural or the way i planned it but it did...

i tried wishing it away knowing that it could only bring me more pain and yet it still happened...the insecurities, the guilt as well as the crushed hope...might all come back to haunt me again...

if only i had something that lasted, something real, something eternal rather than a few days, weeks or months or even worse, years....all i could wish for right now is that you are happy...coz if youre happy i am happy...

saints vs geng malaysia

2008-11-08T13:54:00.000-08:00

it doesnt happen all too often...my legs felt great..just need more game time...was a timely defeat as we went down 2-1 to gm but it was a waking up call...more to come...more to expect...its just gonna get better...

i love this game!

cheers!

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2008-11-04T08:31:00.000-08:00

and so its been some time since i wrote something personal here..

well, my weekend was a blast...i settled quite abit of my curiosity...mainly in ikea...bought myself a new bed...a really good one that i assume is not gonna give me probs till i end my course...besides the orthopaedic frame is meant to be good for my back and posture...not only is this new bed longer and wider (for my 6 ft frame) its also thicker, cozier and well, as always, orangier...leave it at that...when i sleep for the 1st tym on it tonite i will know what the new bed is all about...

and well my trip to ikea was not only rewarding emotionally and physically but it also showed me how smart some creatures get...try a dog taking a metro...ha..its just sleeping btw...it knows wen to stop coz well, canines are known for their heightened senses ryt...?

thats all for now lah i guess...gonna get back to my books...lotsa catching up to do...

God bless ya ol!

nba preview 2008/09

2008-10-28T01:08:00.000-07:00

a lebron team is a champion team...the year of the king...big 3 vs lebron...u know who jumps higher,shoots higher and dunks higher than anyone else....

i know youre expecting a performance from the bi 3 in lakers with kobe in the middle of that, but check out oden..expect nothing les than a show...

so thats baically the 2 videos i managed to get...another game that i wouldnt miss is the bucks bulls game...a beautifully pieced team vs a young team perfect to make history...no comments on this one except its gonna be pretty tight but a high scoring game withboth teams focussing more on offence rather than defence.

judging...

2008-10-27T14:01:00.000-07:00

you know when you open a new book the first thing you probably notice is the publisher...nope...why is it that wen we go for a book or randomly open a book after probably reading the synopsis we just flip the page to something in the middle to impress us and if it doesnt it is either left behind or not even given a second thought...well its a normal act i guess...even when we deal with people we can see ourselves juging others from the little that we see...its like opening the middle part of the book and assuming tat the rest of the book is gonna be like that...the story migh change...just like ppl do and well there might be more to that story or that person that you could miss out...

so the next time u wanna judge people...think twice...or at least a little longer.just think what it would be like to be judged...give others a chance and you might see that its joyful to see new things in people,in things and in every path in our lives...

take care then,

PS...i am not responsible if i ter-named someone...its just a random scribble in my jotter.

happy deepavali!

2008-10-27T02:38:00.001-07:00

happy deepavali to all my hindu friends out there...

i just finished cleaning my bathroom and toilet and stoveand washing machine and i am totally exhausted...nevertheless i did check out the highlights of the last few preseason games...i tell u lebron is on fire..!

its like nobody in the world can stop him...check out these videos at http://www.nba.com/video/channels/top_plays/2008/10/25/nba_20081024_aotn.nba/index.html?player=whatsnew i tried downloading the video to upload it here but some copyright issues made it impossible...anywau u can still check the videos here...if this is what the cavaliers haf planned even aft team US came home with a thrashingly easy olympic gold medal...the title shld be theirs...wade would be the perfect fit but nevertheless the season is open to a few teams...the besides the cavaliers,the celtics would be next contender for the title...i mean they were the title holders right...spurs definitely...the hornets...bucks...and bulls..yes bulls guys they are coming back and i can feel it....never the less whoever thinks lakes had it have got it all wrong...they had it...they gotta change their play to win simple double team kobe...its that easy...

playes to watch are of coz besides lebron james would be kevin garnett,chris paul, dirk novwitsky(had a bad season but the guy has his way of playing that i simply strive for), camelo anthony and yes my man dwayne wade...he is getting it there...now other teams just needa watch him...wen he bring his A+ game it always seems like other players are a level below him...

howard with a little maturing will be the best magic centre ever and jason kidd..i bet he got a few good tricks up his sleeve as well...

and aft all that kobe. kobe, kobe...where can i put you...? he played awesome last season but his teamates were never able to live up to his athletesism...if only pau or lamar had even a tenth of his agility last season they would haf had it...

still statistically speaking they will finish top for during the season but the post season finals mite see them leave early...

thats all to early to say right now...

lets see what happens in the NBA...a place where 80% of the predictions go wrong...somehow the ball is rounder in the NBA than EPL or somthing...

haf a good day then...

Happy deepavali again!

God bless ya ol!

nothingness

2008-10-26T15:44:00.000-07:00

the vendeta of my deepest thoughts
the sudden rush of a soul's creed
that once lived
is suddenly not even dead...
its gone
only to be found,
picked up by a passer-by
knowing not of willows or lillies
or the spring emerged butterflies
the thought reemerges
as a twilight
as a doom...
as what we all call
NOTHINGNESS!

not so innocent after all...

2008-10-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

so last nite there was a fire drill...well not really a drill...it was the real thing...till now i dint know what happened but concluding the information from the various sources a girl had lefther iron on on the carper till it went burning...but the power dint get cut off coz the ELCB wasnt working anyway...it got 7 excited fire hydrants to the hostel in like 10 minutes and well ppl were kinda excited as well...nobody was worried about what was happening or anything but i did see several camera's go off in the night...ppl even make-upd just to come down for the evecuation order and i was thinking...what kind of crack addicts do we have here...

anyway i got back to open my mail and as usual try to get rid of the junk forwarded mails but i stumbled upon a mail that caught my attention...this vieo is pretty cool...well, all crime pays...enjoy!

maths...

2008-10-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

kinda got this email a few days ago...found it really interesting...read it all the way till the end...!

Beauty of Mathematics !!!!!!!

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111

9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?

And look at this symmetry:

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111 = 12345678987654321

Now, take a look at this...

101%

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:

What Equals 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?

Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?

We have all been in situations where someone wants you to
GIVE OVER 100%.

How about ACHIEVING 101%?

What equals 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help
answer these questions:

If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

If:

H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K

8+1+18+4+23+ 15+18+11 = 98%

And:

K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E

11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%

But:

A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E

1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:

L-O-V-E-O-F- G-O-D

12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101%

Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will
get you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

It's up to you if you share this with your friends & loved ones just
the way I did..

Have a nice day & God bless!!

i just wanna be with you...

2008-10-21T00:14:00.000-07:00

when it comes down to this,
all i wanna know is,
do you still remember the sunset
the voices of the sea,
the way your heartbeat beats slightly faster than mine
or the way u always sound calmer than me

it was a morning i wish i didn't wake up to
something felt weird
from the voice inside my heart
music wasnt music
and noise was just noise
i never had that feeling
and yet it kept knocking
when i opened, it was a mail
one that had come centuries early
the thought of even hearing the first words on it
keeps me reincarnated with guilt
all it said was one thing
i made a mistake
my heart was in the wrong place

nevertheless,
i do remember your sweet smile,
your calm voice,
the way ur eyes shrink when you're happy
or when it widens when you're up to mischief
or even when its entrely focused when its the speedometer
your hair often tucked neatly behind your ears
and the ears yeah i can never forget them
perfectly aside your cherry blossomed cheeks
and the cute tinkly nose

just wished you leaned a little longer,
its now time for you to go
but i wish the last few minutes lasted forever
i just wannna be with you...with you!

-duntellya inc.-

saints in action

2008-10-19T12:20:00.000-07:00

so it all ended last night...the wait, the build up and the talks. many have expected the return of the RFL.not only futsal goers and players but basically everyone. anyone who wanted action got it last night.

so we are a new team pieced together. to play the opening game was an honour, despite what others think but nevertheless although not impressive we delivered what we were set out for...
overall it was an interesting game for me as i battled with my fitness and injury and even doubted my appearance that night...but thank God it all went well...now i have 2 weeks to rid the inconsistencies and well play my favourite game...

teamates like pk,toh,agni,siva,prem who supported me in my injured state, and the fans out there...they deserve better...

so lets see where the next game brings us...

cheers

storm...

2008-10-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

ok the thing is this fella doesnt have a name yet but it colour kinda reminds me of a storm so i am calling it storm for now...besides it is generally very quiet but does things suddenly so yeah stormy fella...had so much of fun with this fella yesterday...belongs to roopa but she is planning to give it away...so if all goes well storm here will hav a new home in a few days...

kinda want a puppy...but the thing is training it all over again is gonna remind me of sam and ally and yeah jacky that fella...guess don't do too well with breaking up with my pets so i shal wait till i haf my own place then the dozens of dogs, crocodile and snake ponds and all will follow...till then its either rabbit satay or friends pets...

new shoes...

2008-10-14T15:14:00.001-07:00

i so wanted this shoe last year...but till now i havent seen anyone with it yet so i am kinda planning to grab it...dun care how much it costs now...the next time i see this fella its mine...!

at 1.59 am

2008-10-14T14:53:00.000-07:00

a turnabout,
a fortune yet untold,
a sense of belonging,
a taste of the things to come...

the journey often ends b4 it even begins,
everything is an anomaly,
a puzzle, an equation waiting to be solved,
and still there are others who try their best,
for the smell of things to come...

in the cold Moscow night
tugged up comfortable under the sheets
my thoughts rain cluelessly
my heart rests aimlessly
and then suddenly
the calm takes over
a new warmth reaches out
you embrace it willingly
tug in once more into the warmth

the hurt...means i'm alive
the pain gives me joy
the healing gives me hope
the wait gives me strength

meaningless to nothingness
emerges a dawn in the midst of this winter night
speaking clear to me
my tummy makes the much awaited growl

food...
thats all i need right now!

a good year 11 months and 2 days

2008-10-12T10:26:00.000-07:00

that was just how long my heartbeat made sense....everything i felt or did was out of my control..wat i thought was driving me dint make sense but it felt good! thats all i need thats the memory i bring to my grave...my first and last...my' ....................

complicated people...

2008-10-11T14:20:00.000-07:00

i found this story on the net...think its really funny...enjoy!ha

Question : "What would you like to have.. Fruit Juice, Soda, Tea, Chocolate, Capuccino, Frapuccino, or Coffee?"

Answer: " Tea, please..."

Question : "Ceylon Tea, Indian Tea, Herbal Tea, Bush Tea, Honey Bush Tea, Iced Tea or Green Tea?"

Answer : "Ceylon Tea."

Question : "How would you like it? Black or white?

Answer: "White."

Question: "Milk or fresh cream?

Answer: "With milk."

Question: "Goat's milk or cow's milk?"

Answer: "With cow's milk please."

Question: "Freezeland cow or Afrikaner cow?"

Answer: "Um.. I'll just take it black."

Question: "Would you like it with sweetener, sugar or honey?"

Answer: "With sugar.."

Question: " Beet sugar or cane sugar?"

Answer: "Cane sugar."

Question:" White, brown or yellow sugar?"

Answer: "Forget about the tea, just give me a glass of water instead."

Question: "Mineral water, tap water or distilled water?

Answer: "Mineral water."

Question: "Flavoured or non-flavoured?"

Answer: "I think I'll just die of thirst..."

new movie...keith

2008-10-06T09:19:00.000-07:00

hey there...another movie to watch...kinda think its the reverse walk to remember but there is a different twist in it...really sweet from the start to finish...so its like, how am i gonna put it in words kinda shows that u can find love in the oddest person in the oddest way. enjoyed it..

after a badminton game

2008-09-30T22:46:00.000-07:00

so i played badminton last night...i think the last tym i played was in setiawan and b4 that the good old trainning days in CJC...right dan...? guess it was that long huh...footwork out,smash out, net play out, stamina out, so wat did i do yest...? ell basically try to prove that all of the above was wrong...but i am glad i did it...now i know i gotta train...like alot...

so, if you were walking down a street and an you met someone whom u thought you knew would you say hi or smile or just walk away...? well i always do the first 2 but the walking away part is hard unless the other guy decides to walk away instead...so i do meet a guy, smile, shake hands, tok like we were frens forever in the most broken mixed up version of renglish (russian + english) and yet i never found out his name...and now its like who was that again...?
oh well...ppl over here are just too friendly...at least all the ppl i know in school, basketball and toastmasters...

its raya so in the spirit, lets sy hi to astranger and see wat turns up...probably a life long friendship...

haf a good day!
cheers!

selamat hari raya!

2008-09-30T22:44:00.000-07:00

to all ma muslim frens...Selamat Hari Raya!...

peace!

Wrestling with God

2008-09-30T01:39:00.000-07:00

Jacob Wrestles With God
22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two maidservants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok.
23 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions.
24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.
25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob's hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man.
26 Then the man said, "Let me go, for it is daybreak." But Jacob replied, "I will not let you go unless you bless me."
27 The man asked him, "What is your name?" "Jacob," he answered.
28 Then the man said, "Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, [e] because you have struggled with God and with men and have overcome."
29 Jacob said, "Please tell me your name." But he replied, "Why do you ask my name?" Then he blessed him there.
30 So Jacob called the place Peniel, [f] saying, "It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared."
31 The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, [g] and he was limping because of his hip.
32 Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob's hip was touched near the tendon.

in some versions it is said that jacob wrestles with an angel of God...so this is basically what happened, Jacob gets word that his brother esau and several hundred of his men were planning to invade Mahanaim. so what he does is he sends several of his men b4 him to butter his brother with gifts hoping that his heart will soften b4 he actually meets him and that night wen he was actually confronting Gods angel he refused to let him go till he blessed him to the extent that the angel knocked his hip socket out and he still refused to let go...such was his persistence...and then God gave him a new name Israel-for he was persistant...several verses b4 jacob utters a prayer stating his unworthiness of obtaining a land with no property but a staff...this is how i behave sometimes not knowing wat to do or what to expect often with fear and personal judgements...instead of doubting i wish sometimes i can skip the fear and doubt part and just go to the part where i completely surrender and well wrestle for wat i want...many of us, while persuing Gods kingdom face challenges and trials but wen we don't let go of God i tell u the reward is far more amazing than the small setbacks u get...give you an example, when the docs said that i could not do sports for abt 2 years due to my injury i often questioned God like "why is tis happening to me?" and all but then little that i did realise my upper body strength was weak back then, so moving in the wheel chair build my upper budy naturally so much so that wen i went to jc i could do like 14 pullups from a previous "0"...and well the constant wrestling came to an end when i got my full marks for NAPHA and yeah...think about it...i had a screw, an injury that no other person could haf come back from and yeah the pain was always there but it was nothing compared to the pain if i had not wresteled with God and settled on a wheelchair...

so yeah...life gets pretty crazy for me but i am glad, really Glad that i can always bounce off His hands wenever i fall...thats a relationship that can only treasure more and more each day!

God bless!

Mamma Mia

2008-09-30T01:22:00.000-07:00

I watched this movies mainly because it was a musical...but then dunno why so many ppl said it was stupid and all...i think it was brilliant...3 old women not acting their age, 3 guys excited about being a young girls father...and a girl whu made it all happen...together with ancient music from Alba remixed in a fashionable manner this show is a must watch...but for all those critics whu find it boring and rated this movie as poor, well i dunno wat else you want...to me this was a brilliant musical that was exciting from the start till the end...yeah!

the depths

2008-09-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

its like i do not know what you want anymore...is it peace or time...its like we cant even talk anymore...at least heart to heart...its like the skies fell apart or the oceans turned green, the wind blowing away from the seas or the leaves rolling awkwardly down only to be tramples by bystanders...i do not understand this at ol, haf never been here b4, haf never gone so far off the shore haf never been so blinded...i am what i am only because i need to not be cause i want and in doing so, all i ever wanted is the need to be a want some day but when the need fades and the want does not set in, i am in pieces...i am lost...i do not know what i want anymore...i am back where i started hollow on the inside...what i thought could fill me is actually killing me, what i thought could be for my own good is begnning to take its toll at the words i once heard not so long ago actually...what is this feeling...? i do not even recognise it anymore, and yeah i do not even recoznise myself anymore...the anomalous depths of uncertainty remains the same, the hope of tapping some wisdom results in a jubiloustap of insanity...where am i now...? how did i get here...? is this really who i am..? cold, hard and hexed of the inside...and then the question remains...what is that you want from me...? is this all merely but a test...if so how do i know which way to take...is there a right path...? more importantly is thre a disasterous path...?
i grew up knowing there is no good or bad decisions in life...there is those u make and those you don't make...if those you made dint turn out right then you analyse how things could change for the better...for the better...?hmmm....what does better actually mean...? whu is better for...? is it for u...?is it for me...? is it to hurt me...? or is it a kick you get out of something like when a kid topples anothers puzzle construction...so i am here once again wondering, is there anything i could haf done to make things right...? or at least better...for YOU!

Lord, i lay it down...all of me....

2008/2009 rides plus my all time favourite

2008-09-28T00:50:00.001-07:00

Ford Mustang

Among my favourite muscle cars. This 5oohp model does not only give u the rp kick wen u drive it but the open hood gives you something different from all th ther mustangs. definitely not a malaysian road kinda car (too many humps and useless traffic lights plus it raing every other day) but well if ur taking any 400 plus miles highway thats almost straight u will enjoy it...so in my opinion its a fantastic country ride where you and your soulmate enjoy the little things other than the car.

Ford Mustang Shelby GT500KR Cobra

A super racer car that i saw 1st in the car fair in EXPO. havent heard the engine or anything but a 500hp GT is not gonna sound anything less than awesome!

Future#1

Saw this in rides for 2009 on MSN. It is still in its modeling state and this sketch is enough to blow your mind off, coupled with its aerodynamics i can only imagine someone driving this baby at nothing les than 150 mph.

not gonna disclose the model just yet.try to check it out...enjoy

Ford Mustang GT

Another convertible with body glove skin

When is a black striped orange convertible gonna come out...?ah...

1967 Ford Mustang Elenor

My all time favourite car...love the power, both interior and exterior design and well the low groove drive...if i ever get my hands on one, not gonna share it with anyone, lest let anyone in!

Future #2

not gonna reveal the model as well...another sketch...try figure it out..

Ford Mustang Giugiaro

Ok this baby i know nothing much about but the fact that it is orange makes it a pretty hot car...exterior design wise this is the best designed mustang yet...no way its a family car...this is totally a husband and wife car...guys who dun plan to haf kids or well dun plan to take their kids on a cool long drive should onider this babe!

Smooth eh!!!
Gosh, so wanna haf a go with it!

a long wait

2008-09-24T11:01:00.000-07:00

and so i have been away from this place for quite abit...reason being:it was the hols and well was pretty busy sorting out other personal stuff...

so year 2 started with a bang...seriously double the workload of year one coupled with the fact that the linguistic ability of the lecturers halved i got myself a really tough semester...but well i am looking forward to finishing this sem and dawning the approach of winter break whick i think is seriously gona be hell,considering that its generally colder than last year this time round.

and so, the question still lies b4 me...wat am i here for? what does studying medicine mean to me...? basically after the break i was happy with going with the flow but i got reinstated with my own conviction when i used anaand's stethescope the other day. hearing your own heart beat,hearing the blood flow or feeling the cavities in your thoraxic region by percussion....it was amazing...some mite say it was normal but seriously that was the 1st tym i used it in the right way and it was awesome...it was basically the worlds best stethesscope "littman"...try it the 1st tym and you would know what i actually mean...

so i started the semester by catching up with alot of shows..but the one that droped out of the sky for me was "code geass" pretty short anime with the last episode only coming out next monday.hopefully it will be the final one lah coz well i haf too many shows to catch up with and it sure helps when some of it actually come to an end. seriously i mean why dont some shows just come to an end...shows like naruto and all are like never ending till i haf lost interest...i watched bleach till 185 and i and i dunno how long more tha is gonna be going on for...guess its all about maintaining the fans...but seriously...we all know aizen is gonna fite ichigo in the end...so yeah just waiting for that match ah its gonna be great....

and yeah my ankle got busted again...still cant forget the 2 legged tackle that struckme last friday...that was a really cheap shot man but watta do its the game...if u love it enuff a small setback isnt gonna keep you away from your passion...nd surely and truly everyone is lookingforward to the RFL this year,,even the guys whu know nothing abut soccer or whu dun even play the sport come down all for the action and drama...its only gnna get better with each match...

and yeah b4 i pen down my last thoughts just a fruit for thought...it just came up...
"if someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life, then it means that they had never tried a new thing in their life" -Einstein-

so yeah with that in mind lets looks to the new semester with renewed hope and faith that its all gonna be well and awesome for everyone...

haf a grat week ya ol!
cheers!

studying to clear colloques

2008-06-18T09:46:00.000-07:00

and so i am now left with cns,pns and sensory organs which include the histo and anat parts...watta do dint clear earlier wen i had the time, but seriously while studying now away from the pressure of school and russian class i am kinda learning quite abit...in fact its more than wat was taught for the whole second sem..."she" really tested my patience in class, but well at least now i am getting the whole picture of what she was "trying" to teach the whole semester..really hope t get irina for the next sem or else we are seriously toast!

lemme see...its been 5 weeks since i last went for a run,surprisingly havent fallen sick yeh except for my back which gotta be checked out en i get back...beside that, life's really good...

you know the amazing thing about studying now is that its still bright outside at 9pm itslike 5pm in malaysia...so yeah minus the sleepy feeling its a pretty condusive evironment to study in...

gonna get back to it in a short while...got 3 majors to clear and yeah gonna breathe my sigh of relief soon...so yeah

God bless ya!

believe it or not...?

2008-06-03T02:32:00.000-07:00

Prediction of the coming DisasterMr. Juseleeno, born in 1960(reportedly still alive in 2008), is a Brazilian who has made many predictions, and MOST have come to pass, including Princess Diana's death by car accident (which is instigated by someone near her and will probably unfortunately be written off as a car accident), 911and the 2004 Indonesian tsunami. He sees the future in his dreams, and hasan average of 3 to 9 such predictions per day. When he wakes up, he willwrite them down, and send warnings to those concerned.If it concerns only a normal individual, he will write a letter to warnhim/her.If it is a famous person(celebrity, politician etc.), or matters concerningthe public, he will not only send it to the individual himself/herself, butalso related agencies, government, and media. He urged the media topublicise these predictions, but the reply always went along the lines ofrejection for fear of arousing public panic.Future predictions:2008, July: There will be an earthquake in Japan , which will cause atsunami of 30 plus metres high to occur as well.2008, 18th September: An earthquake with magnitude of approximately 9.1will rock China , simultaneously causing a tsunami of more than 30 metresto occur, resulting in the deaths of more than 1 million people.Although this huge earthquake will happen after the Olympics have ended,there will be a series of relatively smaller earthquakes occurring in Chinabefore the huge earthquake. The China government, which is more concernedwith the success of the Olympics, will most likely neglect to employappropriate cautionary measures, thus the high casualty rate. If the Chinagovernment does not publicise the occurrence of these minor earthquakes andevacuate people, the number of deaths will be as predicted.2008, 17th December: terrorist attack in America2010: The temperatures in some countries of Africa could be as high as 58degrees Celsius, and there will be a serious shortage of water.2010, 15th June: The New York Stock Exchange market will fail, causing aninternational financial crisis.2011: The research on the treatment of some cancers will be completed, buta new life-threatening virus will appear. People who are infected will dieafter only approx. 4 hours of coming into contact with the virus.2013, 1st - 25th November: Research on treatment of cancers, except forbrain tumors, will be completed. An earthquake, caused by volcaniceruptions, will happen on Bahama Island of the Canary Islands . A gigantictsunami of roughly 150 metres will result. America mainlands, Brazil etc.will be affected, with the tsunami pushing into the land as far as 15 to 20kilometres. Before the occurrence of this gigantic tsunami, the sea/oceanwater levels will sink by about 6 metres, and large flocks of birds willstart to migrate.2014: A small planet that has been gradually closing in on Earth mighteventually collide with Earth, and this collision, if come to pass, willaffect the survival of humans as a whole.2015: By the mid of November, the average temperature of Earth could be ashigh as 59 degrees Celsius. Many people will die from the overheat, andinternational confusion and terror ensues.2016, April: A huge typhoon will invade China , causing massive damage. The43rd USA president, George Walker Bush, will enter the hospital, and facesa life or death situation.2026, July: A super earthquake will occur in Sans Francisco, and it will benamed "The Big One". Huge damage to surrounding areas. Many volcanoes will re-activate, and the height of resulting tsunami will be more than 150metres.Mr. Juseleeno made known his predictions in hopes that people will take heed of his warnings, so that these disasters may be avoided. He hopes there will be a major change in the thinking of people's mindsets in the time period 2007 - 2008. One factor will be the environmental issue ofglobal warming, which is more serious than what some meteorologists assume.

what a week i haf ahead of me...

2008-06-01T05:05:00.000-07:00

not only do i have colloqiums,controls and raskazes coming up,the nba finals starts on june 5th...as much as i haf to clear my papers,i so badly wanna catch the finals...i never expected these 2 teams to be here at the beginning of the season...always thought that it was gonna be the hornets vs the cavaliers...but well this is really interesting as well...with garnet at the centre of his team with paul pierce having the game of his courier and ray allen picking up maybe,just maybe they haf wat it takes to beat kobe,gasol and odom...the celtics haf really outdone themselves to come this far starting with major transfers to the hellova' determination in the big three...i mean i knew garnett was good but only this season i am beginning to love him...kobe on the other hand is a player of class unmatchable unless compared to lebron james(the king!) so yeah its gonna be a finals thts gonna be way more interesting than last year...well last year the finals was over in just 4 games..i just think that this might be a 7 game series with both team holding home games which will only be decided in the final game...

so you see what i am gonna miss out next week- coz of these colloques the time of the games alone will frustrate any basketball fan living with me...so yeah my back seems to feel a little better or maybe i am more tolerent to the pain now,but i gues i will check it out wen i get back...

hmmmm...bio, anat, chem, russian all in one week...not forgetting the maths results coming out tomoro...crazy week ahead...yeah really crazy week ahead...

God bless ya all!
cheers!

its been 5 days since my back started killin' me

2008-05-26T03:27:00.000-07:00

my back is seriously killing me...i dunno how the pain came and got this bad all of a sudden...have been taking ponstans like sweets and still the pain is there...did a little research of my own, checking out the region where the ain is coming from and how deep the pan s asising from i donot thing it is a muscular pain in any way...most probably a bone problem but going to a doc to check it out is prob the last thing i will do...and i gotta be bedridden to be taken to a doc..ha...

so it comes down to 2 things,since the pain is in the right sacral partof my back which happens to be directly opposite the screw i have it could be complications arising from this impant...the worst case scenario wold be situation number 2 which i a tumour...but for the pain to be this bad it had to be a really agressive one...somehow the pain is not incresing but sharp at my highest tolerance level...either way i am prepared for the worst...the theory "watever can go wrong will go wrong" seems to be following me everytime...just had an awesome handball season with the best guys and now it seemslike i cant do sports at all...its even hard to study sitting up straight coz of the pain...

will see how it goes...if the pain remains the same guess i can wait till i get back to check it out...just gonna keep praying really hard cos it the onli thing thats keeping me going with all the pain rite now..

we are the champions my friends!!!

2008-05-23T10:51:00.000-07:00

nobody can deny tat it was the best champions league final yet...9 years after the treble and we haf another new memory to go with the 98/99 truimph...

Home made from T. Ben on Vimeo.

my "22nd"

2008-05-14T12:14:00.000-07:00

the 13th of may marks several significant events in history from the axe of the crusaders to the may 13th tragedy in malaysia...the list goes on but these were the couple that popped up in y mind...none of these days i cud remember were of celebration or rejoice,a catastrophy or tragedy always spured the significance of may the 13th...even wen i thought that this day was safe for me this year i was wrong...rite at the stroke of midnight my buddies came over to wish me onli to haf vivien smash an egg on me...really thought that was the end as we had planned a party at the park that evening...all of us cooked various dishes for the gathering...i was kinda mentally prepared for a bashing aft how we had planned rai's b'day but i never expected a planning this perfect...so we had the makan session in the park-which was terriblly cold. the cake cutting was a little messy with vivien making me smell my own cake-really well...haha...seriously thought that was it...and then we had our dinner and were packing to go back wen akmal sugesed a final group photo which i regret taking...coz thats wen it all happened...every b'day in our group i dare say there is no escape no matter wat...the planning is schemed to perfection...

the group photo i never should haf taken... coz this is wat happened

he tried to fly,but he got cought...eventually

she tried to hide...but well there was no escape...

it was freezing cold!

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b4 al that happened...the party of coz...crafted over the actual plan...i so should haf known...even par,all the way in perth knew wat was up...everyone except me...!huh...wat a day it was...fun though...thoroughly enjoyed it...thanx guys!! u are all so awesome!

dave...smiling...well he was the one whu carefully distributed the eggs without me knowing

wat an execution!

everyone tried running but there was no escape...i spared the cameramen fakhrul and diyana but suprisingly i dunno how nabilah escaped...chill dun wori dear urs is coming soon...haha...cant wait for the next bashing!!

this group rocks!!

news alert

2008-05-12T08:39:00.000-07:00

in case you guys do not know,the 2nd biggest natural disaster in SEA just struck affeting burma the worst...join me in prayer as we cont to pray for the missing people and the families of those confirmed dead...i do not wish to include any further details of the disaster as the numbers are CRAZY!!...

for more info please visit http://myamarnews.blogspot.com/

hav a gd day folks!!

Personal Perception

2008-05-10T23:44:00.000-07:00

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey? 'Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, 'The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?' Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey. Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman.' The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you.' Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a nar row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

tagged..?%%%@@@

2008-05-07T09:24:00.000-07:00

in the middle of my latin mugging and amy comes up to me ans says ur tagged...i was like wats up...? tag u back...tengok tengok its this...since i needed the break decided to chill a little...

The Rules
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.
4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

Random Fact 1- i love sports...like more than anything else i can think of...it completes me.i love God with all my heart and soul and strength.i love orange.i love cheesecakes,any sort. i love my friends. i love my church(s).i love wood and jade more than blings. yeah that pretty much covers it...

Random Fact 2- i really dun like pink but i haf a "hot pink" class jersey which i haf worn exatly 3 times.

Random Fact 3-the outdoors rock, if an expedition comes my way i am ready to pack my stuff and head out within minutes.

Random Fact 4-love to put a smile on people's faces...i dunno but there is so much joy in buying an icecream for a random kid...when i can.

Random Fact 5-i am afraid of eating fish...had an accident once, never really got over it...all it takes is for u to tell me the fish has bones and its yours no matter wat.

Random Fact 6-find it really difficult to sleep at night, all this thoughts just swarm me randomly, especially wen i really really need to sleep.

Random Fact 7-i believe chilly and cheese can go with any food in the world

Random Fact 8-i haf this realy crazy dying wish...my best friends know...wen i die, i wanna be burried in old trafford, or at least haf my ash thrown on the pitch...

People I wanna tag : People try to do this ok?
1. vikram
2. iggy
3. wendy
4. nat
5. alan
6. broad minor
7. mari
8. vivacious

dare to do this with your car...?

2008-05-04T12:30:00.000-07:00

these guys are dare devils i tell you!!!

Rai's b'dae!

2008-05-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

thats her alryt...wanna know how it happened...?i mean its not everyday that a friend turns 21 rite..?

trust me u definitely do not wanna know wat went in there...chill i will get to it soo but well mite as well be out with it....well, "sisa makanan for a week" which includes rotten banana, sardine, egg, curry, chicken skin, but the best was probably the 1 week old bubur which was made by vivien...

we planned the whole thing allryt, the code was black and covert so it required a little hiding...
thanx to mira we managed to get her exactly where we wanted her to be for the event of the nite...
she was basically bashed from all directions...no escape...i men no escape...wen she was running away from the rest she ran straight to me...the thing is i had the rest of wat was in the pail so yeah she had it good...
she puked...of coz i mean who wouldnt ryt...?ha

then there was the cake...but wait...the flour wasnt done yet...

cheese all...ha...well basically its a 21st that rai would rem for her whole life...we bashed her pretty good, but its coz we love her so much...

this gang rocks man!! seriously...

all i can say is u dun any of my group members know wen ur gonna turn 21..

cheers!

check her out

2008-04-22T14:00:00.000-07:00

well this girl just moved me...i mean some of us with all 5 senses are still not using it fully but this girl here is changing the world with only 4...

a tour on parasitoloy (part 2)

2008-04-21T02:49:00.000-07:00

Trematodes (flukes)

Nematodes

Cestodes

quotes...

2008-04-20T03:10:00.000-07:00

"Even after all this time,
the sun never says to the earth,
'You owe me.'
Look what happens with a love like that.
It lights the whole sky"

Hafiz, 1320-1389

a tour on parasitology

2008-04-16T08:15:00.000-07:00

Lumen dwelling protozoa

entamoeba histolytica

Gardia lambia

Trichomonas

Balantidium coli

Blood and tissue dwelling protozoa

Trypanosoma

Leishmania

Toxoplasma gondii

Plasmodium

stepping up...

2008-04-15T06:38:00.000-07:00

and so the warriors are out and pacers have done nothing much to stay in the playoffs,but the best part is the cavaliers haf managed to maintain home court advantage for playoffs...talking about the nba, i can accept all the current mvp candidates,i mean chris paul did a great job in lifting the hornets (still wont forget the pass he made that gave them the buzzer beating win over cleveland),kevin garnett single-handedly gave the nba the greatest turnabout in a team and lebron james, i mean he can do everythig and shines every second he is on court and its a nightmare for defenders to haf him around but why on earth do they see kobe as the one to most probably take the title...it is not confirmed yet but i do not understand why the people in the cable rooms do not see players who are playmakers and give teamates a boost in "dream time" but someone who scores over 80 points a night...i have to admit kobe has matured as a team player and we can see that in the diff bts his partnership with shaq compared to pau gasol...but still, look at the team lakers got and the team the celtics or hornets or cleveland has...isnt it tougher to build a team around that...? even if kobe does win it i haf no worries, he is stil one of the best players to ever play the game, maybe the playoffs mite see him do more than just score...

i had pt earlier and skipped my basketball trainning with the russians as i was no where near fit to play...my fitness has been really out and i need the break, but nevertheless i played for a bit during pt itself and well the battle wasnt between 2 eams but 2 players,me and their point guard...cant remember his name but he really made me step up my game.the moment i entered court i assumed my role as a guard and supplied my teamates balls rather then take shots...i knew he was a good playeras i had played with him a couple of times...just didnt realise he improved so much in such a short time...in about 5 minutes he was dropping 3 point shots followed by out of the blue fade aways and well this realli pissed me off coz i couldnt do anything...decided to mark him nstead and from then on it was a rumble...wenever he dropped shots i followed and wenever i brought the ball to the ring he did the same...i the end it was like the game was simply between the 2 of us...i cant remember the last time i dropped 6 3-points n a row...i acted cool but was on my nerves each tie i took the shot...was an amazing feeling...in the end i didnt keep track of the final score but he mite hafscored about 1 or 2 extra points compared to me but i made sure my teamates scored wenever they seemed open...tried my best to keep them in the game but at times wen they couldnt keep up with me i had to do it all..hope it didnt seem like showboating wen i did a couple of fakes or tricks to score but well i did wat i did to win...not sure of the score but i think we won lah...woah the feeling of one of the fadeaways from the side 3 point line was just amazing...can still feel it now...wanna be able to step up my game like this all the time...

sports at its latest...

2008-04-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

had a really tough week overcoming colloques (managed to do 2 out of 4) and to beat it all had an even tougher injury to recover from...havent trained much since i got to moscow but i had my own personal session the moment the weather got a little better.went for an hour run last friday...didnt expect it to be so dificult to breathe, i so wanted to give up half way and start walking but i am glad that i persevered with small steps of an almost walking pace...the up hills of the park were rather challenging and well fun...rite after that managed to play a couple of games of cricket with a few indian seniors here from my hostel itself and aft that another game of soccer...but that wasnt it..by then my muscles were all tensed up but u know me i dun when to stop so managed to catch 2 hours of sleep in the night and headed for handball trainning the next day at 8 am...that was pretty intense with a minor fitness drill followed by a couple of games...wait that wasnt it yet...to top it all had a soccer tounament on sunday...it didnt go too well but it wasa good match to judge whre i stand in terms of fitness and skill after not trainning for a really long time...enjoyed it coz i really did my best each moment that i played and well wats left is for me to train and improve from there on...

gonna take a short break for now and after that there aint gonna be a break till i see gold at nizhny...just praying for strength to keep going as my determination isnt about to let me down and so,i dun want my body to either...

oh and yeah...the nba playoffs begin on the 19th this month so its like 5 more days to go...ronaldo vs ronaldinho coming up in champions league as well and 3 wins to the barclays title for the best soccer team in the world at the moment...wat a month to look forward to eh...

cheers...

wat a way to start my day!

2008-04-06T04:33:00.000-07:00

oh my my my...last nite was bad....realli bad and i think its gonna get worse...for those of u who dint know wat the temperature was last nite.well it was 8 degrees...that would be freezing in malaysia but i was sweating like crazy the best part was i was simply just sleeping in my boxes...wonder what summer holds for me...

ha, the day weather is kinda okay,awesome actually with te cold breeze and not so hot shiny sun, but the night weather..oh my..with no wind at all...its really really bad and yeah the worst part is waking up in your own puddle of sweat..ha..

kena lah beli kipas nxt weekend or something...

u guys haf an awesome week ahead yeah!

gonna catch the man utd game now!

cheers..

breaking at 6!!

2008-04-03T07:25:00.000-07:00

this kid is onli 6 years old...just look at the way he moves...swift and fast and no signs tiredness...he makes the other dancers look like noobs...haha
enjoy!!

balshoi's birthday's after party at "club tunnel"

2008-03-30T11:08:00.000-07:00

it was a normal night on the 29th...anaand,vivien amy and myself went for a freezing run (the first of many to come...thank God for this weather!!) and we got ready for balshoi's birthday party celebration which was filled with lotsa "sentimental" speeches...and then it started...our after party plan...to go tunneling...

got everyone in cabs and we headed there...oh and yeah this is my first clubbing experience in moscow and wat a way to announce a first trip eh..
the moment i entered i was totally in shock to hear techno beats...i was thinking that the beat was gonna change but it didnt and then later realised it was techno nite...the music was pure boring coz of its repetitiveness but we still di manage to dance to a few songs lah coz well, thats wat we went there for ryt?

so we danced and took several breaks inbetween to just chill and enjoy 3rd hand smoke...haha.

an awesome weekend aft a long time...

2008-03-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

hey guys...if you're wondering what took me so long to write this post,well its coz i havent been that well. i have been down with a terible bacterial infection last friday which started off as a fever followed by alll the other symptoms like pain at my joints and feeling cold all the tie coupled with the loss of appetite. to top it all i was actually coughing blood as well...the coughing blood thing stopped prob on thursday and that was when i started regaining my strength...

teachers here, i tell you...dunno wats up with them...just by missing a weeks worth of class my russian teacher has threatened to hold back her zachut and my bio and chem teachers have respectively made my year one path to an aftermath a nightmare...and thats when i decided,well if i have to sit for the final exam including the oral i will do it, no complaints!!!i am here to shine yeah...a diamond will continue to shine even if you throw it in mud, rite? well if what it takes to prove i deserve to be here is the hardest path i am taking it...i was made for challenges...and when i think like this, it makes me wonder, what is so difficult about 1st year medicine...its fun and challenging...all that i wanted in a nutshell...so yeah looking forward to another awesome week...

so that as what happened during the week...and in the weekend vivien, my roomate and myself had a little party of our own....had mcd and a salmon pie at Ram Store,bought back 2 extremely cheap B&R's ice cream tub...haha wat a way to celebrate rite after being bed-ridden for a week rite...?haha

and today just topped my weekend wen it started with sports...had handball practice which was rather short but amazingli awesome coz i was able to sweat in a long time...

haf a great week then people...!
cheers, and God bless!!

the best game yet...

2008-03-05T11:17:00.000-08:00

since i came to moscow,i havent really done much sports. if i said i was too busy it would be an excuse lah but the real reason lies in the weather news. the outdoors are out of bounds, unless of course u wanna catch pneumonia or something far worse. i do play futsal from time to time on a regulatory basis of at least once a week but for those who know me u would know that would never be enough for me,ha thats just the way i am built...

besides i havent really played much basketball since getting here but wat i can tell u from the games i have played thus far, havent realli pushed myself till yesterday...had the best game.we played for about 2 and a half hours in which abt an hour and a half were with a group or russians.they were kinda good but i had better teammates, billy and dominic who kinda help lift me throughout the game...we played a full fullcourt game and seriously it was my best game in moscow. heightwise we were nothing compared to them bt we seriousli whooped them. a halftime my tally was something like 10 points 21 assists and 20 steals and blocks and about 25 rebounds. in case you are wondering wat happened aft that...wel it went on and i lost count of the tally after that...it was such a good game.i would normali think of scoring in a game and putting my name on the mark but yesterday t wastotali different,i wanted my whole team to play well so i played the point guard and defensive center role and allowed them to haf their best game i am sure. i had a smile on my face throughput the game and billy and dominic would testify that i was never tired coz it was so fun playing a good game like that after a long time.

and then i realised,basketball is more than a game wer ppl put balls in hoops.its basically a game wer communiction and teamwork are vital,these things that are normally lacking in a half court game can be found in a full court game. i hope i can have games like this more often. wen sports is enjoyed like this, one can onli wish for it to last forever...

going to the gmes that we used to play in sri muda and sunway college this was nothing bt i hope the pace of the game will step up lah...cant wait to haf one og those games. all i can say is that i will keep pushing myself to the max and wen i cant push any longer i will still try...watta do, sports mean alot to me!

Making Brownies

2008-03-05T11:02:00.000-08:00

if you are free try it sam tried it and forwarded the link to me...havent tried it yet but it looks realistic...tell me wat you think of it yeah...