tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76318234052282570492024-03-13T10:22:59.957-07:00My plush thoughts on a soft boardduntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.comBlogger67125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-26343659519561326222012-05-11T22:47:00.000-07:002012-05-11T22:47:06.442-07:00When uncomfortable becomes a good thing!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
As i was playing my guitar in the wee hours of the morning, i realised i haven't played so often. Since i got back home from my studies, i have been spending so much time on my piano that the guitar no longer rests in my arms when a new tune kicks in my ears...but then, though my softened fingers hurt n my posture had to be adjusted several times to accommodate the changing rifts, i realised i could still play a decent melody....<br />
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Why is this so...you would ask me...<br />
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Well as my pastor once said, i built a reserve of skills from when i used to practice with passion in my younger days. I bet even if i did not touch my guitar till i am 40, i could still play it the same way, or at least with little effort.<br />
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I believe its the same with everything else in life...<br />
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My brother used to fold origami's as a hobby when he was little,and used to do it so well that i believe everything that the Japanese had thought of folding a paper into had been achieved by my brother. That was when he was little...Today, if he walked into a children's room or a kindie class with no toys...he could still entertain them with just a piece of square paper...they get so entertained to have toys made out of paper that they fall into a spell under my brother...i have seen it, most people who know him well enough have seen it.<br />
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So i believe this...when we have time in our hands, use it to build a reserve...cos it never goes to waste...<br />
its better to build a reserve than to do nothing at all...<br />
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In a relationship, use the good days to do something meaningful, go all out to make it so special, so that during a bad time, or in the midst of a tough, busy schedule, you guys can still ponder upon the love and the good times, because a reserve of love and affection has been built...<br />
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Take time to say " I love you" more than you feel like saying, or do something for someone you care, even though you don't feel like doing it...cos i believe all this adds to a reserve. Also when you practice something long enough, even though you might be uncomfortable or be bad at it, i believe you will learn to love it, and actually be good at it...there is an old Malay proverb that goes..."the back of the blade can still be made sharp if it is sharpened all the time"...it goes without saying that in this life...we are not alone...i mean NEVER...you might try to be, but you gotta realise that there are people who are gonna grit us, love us, hurt us, care for us, rob us, bless us and i can go on and on....<br />
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We can make the choice...to be different...its not a one day thing, but a process that takes time...<br />
I am writing this because i need to start a few processes myself...things that are not gonna be easy, but in the long run, someday i know its gonna be good for me and the people that i love around me...</div>duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-61704803993471865932010-06-10T04:19:00.000-07:002010-06-10T04:20:15.425-07:00iPhone 4duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-48794200568703691692009-06-07T23:50:00.001-07:002009-06-08T00:05:30.633-07:00on june the 8thit seems like forever since i last wrote here. there is so much i wanna tell, ideas are exploding out of my head but considering that i gotta head to uni in a short while i will write as much as i can...<br /><br />so Man Utd lost the finals and cavaliers are out, surprisingly, thought i am a little disappointed i enjoyed those games because both teams really out up a great fight. honestly in the magic/cavaliers series it could have gone either way...despite what everone thinks, lebron is still the best ball player in the world coz he does magic with the little he has.<br /><br />not even a press conference with him till now. i know he is disappointed and all, like this year was his year and all but i am sure he will get over it. "i'm 100% behind you bro!" he is so gonna come back stronger, more determined and more hyped up for his first nba title. nobody in the league wants it more than him right now.so yeah all the best to the cleveland cavaliers for the coming season. if you guys are not catching up with the finals, the series is curently going lakers way 2-0. i think magic should be able to win it...their 3 point play system is really deadly. really hate te way they knocked cleveland out but i respect what they did...they brought a whole new stule to basketball...they have proven that a young team with no stars like lebron james and kobe bryant can still possibly win a championship<br /><br />manchester united has a good uphill walk. Ronaldo must have his ego beaten and realises now its not about him but the team. all i can say is that he would have done much worse in Real, no offense real madrid fans. well i see the prospects of an even deadlier team next season...<br /><br />cant wait to go back..just days away from my flight home. i really need the breather...miss my guys back home.miss church, miss soccer, the innitial d and daytona, the ais kacang and char kweh teow, the bike and the skates and above all i miss swimming!<br /><br />alryt then back to work<br />haf a great day all!<br />God bless!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-30656724202188168102009-01-28T03:00:00.000-08:002009-01-28T03:09:43.248-08:00a really promissing president!<object width="410" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/3PuHGKnboNY&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/3PuHGKnboNY&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="410" height="295"></embed></object>duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-51098728320006069632009-01-13T08:43:00.000-08:002009-01-13T08:48:34.541-08:00sports at its latest...<object width="480" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/4tgtvDSwReI&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/4tgtvDSwReI&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="295"></embed></object><br /><br />well i really gotta get back to my books..but thereare so many videos to talk abt...lebron,rooney,ronaldo and giggs...and yeah this play is utter genious...i have seen it done in my team back in cjc soccer b4...seen it in important games but never this perfect with the refree's whistle and all...and the ref disallowed it...come on ppl man utd is just a brilliant team and there are those who chose to cheat themselves...enjoy the vid...!<br /><br />all the best to those sitting for exams!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-58378969287862533942008-12-21T15:50:00.000-08:002008-12-21T16:00:21.770-08:00december 17th highlightsit was so had to get the video from the nba website...need to find a new software to download online videos as real player hangs all the time!<br /><br />lebron is the king!<br /><br />i say it again...he is the king!<br /><br />if ur a basketball lover, no matter which team u support u cant deny the fact that lebron single handedly dominated the timberwolves..wanted the video with the no look pass and the random jumpshots from all over the 'd' and the 3 point line...and even managed to fool arnd and still come up with the flight and dunk of the year...at least the best 2( the best would be post season this year wen he sliced thru kevin garnet and i dunno whu else and dunked as if they were cheese slices on my sandwich!)<br /><br />a short video highlight of all the games but seriously if you can just visit <a href="http://www.nba.com/video/">http://www.nba.com/video/</a> and find that lebron game and you will know what i am talkin about...<br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/eWSBKfahNUw&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/eWSBKfahNUw&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />haf a nice nite!<br />God bless!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-85160425622451646602008-12-21T14:34:00.001-08:002008-12-21T15:40:39.965-08:00what i mean by what i do..was really agitated the whole day...firstly i got hacked real bad...secondly i couldnt play all the songs that would normally make me feel better...nevertheless seeing 'her' really calmed me down like 10 notches...something even kian's whole box of chocolates couldn't do...<br /><br />when i make fun of you its coz i care, and you mean something to me...i can be bothered to come up with "wheelchair club" jokes if i wasnt close to you and no matter what happens i always have my friends back..and definitely have yours as well...<br /><br />"whats wrong with me...?"...i ask myself this question very so often and well if i have a friend who missed a scoring opportunity, the normal thing to do is go and encourage him to to get up and try again...but isnt there another way of doing that? like "wats wrong with u bro...?" it would encourage him in a whole new way...of coz u cant say that to someone you hardly know...words like that can only be used on someone you are close to...and it doesnt really matter if your friend is a guy or a girl...thats what i believe...but i might have been wrong all this while...might have hurt alot of people in the process...the thing is i did put myself in her shoes and yet i see it as something normal...which brings me to another thing i learned, painfully...nobody is the same...if you have 100 friends none of them will react exactly the same way to a particular situation...all of them have totally different ways to react....almost similar , well some might argue but seriously i have seen enough to know almost similar is still not similar...<br /><br />For everything i have out you through...i am sorry~just hope you understand that i will never do or say anything to hurt you or make you feel less comfortable about who you are...<br /><br />i know what i did was wrong for thinking of even the slightest possibility of the existance of 2 people who think the same way...that has to change...nevertheless there are some things we guys are often mistaken for or taken for granted..<br /><br />1)we are just as soft as you...so what hurts you naturally hurts us as well<br />however,<br /><br />2)we are not as strong as you are, coz we have this thing called pride which makes us wanna deal with things alone, most of the time taking wrong solutions or long winded paths.<br /><br />3)we might be wrong about certain things but please, we cant be wrong about everything...<br /><br />4)when we say we are sorry we mean it but i dunno why very so often this is mistaken as something like a routine...i know many ppl out there who find it hard to even say sorry when they are in the wrong, but there are some of us who are willing to accept the mistake bcoz even if we do not understand it then, one day, when we actually sit down and think we will...<br /><br />5)lastly, nobody's perfect...all my life i have been judged by people for things i am not..it gets my blood boiling but well i have learned my lesson to not let my temper get the better of things...so yeah judged or not judged i am being recognised as a person i am not...i wouldnt want anyone to change that...as this is one thing that separates my brothers and sisters from my friends.<br /><br />sometimes i take things for granted, sometimes i say or do things i do not understand but if there is one person that has actually made me think and reflect so much about myself, it would be <em>YOU, </em>so please dont judge me just yet. what i said the other day, i meant every word of it.<br /><br />love the little things you do...<br />want you to keep doing it<br />for all its worth<br />i wana be 'the one' for you<br />take care of you,<br />listen to you,<br />laugh at your jokes,<br />hold you in my arms,<br />wipe away your tears,<br />making sure they never come again,<br />be there in every circumstance,<br />even if its just to watch you smile for a second<br />i would give it my all...duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-29817988226251319532008-12-19T17:05:00.000-08:002008-12-19T17:14:17.117-08:00life as it is...and so i haf pending colloques 4 for anat, 2 for physio and yeah thats about it...planning to finish 3 next week and the other 3 the week after...if can go for more next week the better...<br /><br />i am kinda at peace now...i dunno why but well just had wendy's mushroom sauce and i can tell u...its a killer!!!! i went over for a wile to like kacau them and guess what giju ofered me some bread and i was like " no thanx bro...i am heading off to bed" and then well i stayed till i saw the botom of the soup...it was really really good...<br /><br />looking forward to the party later...got lotsa things to cook but more importantly going for my run...its been a month since i had a good decent run so this is good...not so much to clear my head like i always do but this time its mainly for fitness coz well i am getting more and more unfit...my standing broadjump the other day was only 250cm...so yeah got alot to work on that...<br /><br />gotta be able to dunk soon...been so long ddi...now i cant even remember if i was ever able to dunk..but well...ppl like darren would remind me of how i used to slam...gotta get that back,...so yeah starts now...<br /><br />still cant sleep...and yeah i let my heart out tonyt...thats why the relief i guess...the feeling of vulnerability...its over coz now i can know for sure..<br /><br />take care then all...<br /><br />nite<br />God bless!!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-11103765705612566352008-12-17T13:09:00.000-08:002008-12-17T13:28:10.855-08:00bus drivers in moscow...most of the time they are blur..nice and well, convenient...today i kinda met a totally different species, a retarded one that wanted to get me killed.<br /><br />so i was going to strella with 'her' and well of coz we went by bus...so our stop came and we wanted to get off the bus and the driver started to drive off just as i was about to step out...what does that fella think...? it certainly wasnt a bus ride in india or something but wat was going through his mind...did he have to rush somewhere...? can he make 8 rounds of his shift instead of seven coz i really wanna know what made him think he owned us...kinda got my knee twisted as i had already placed one foot on on the ground when it started to take off...thank God 'she' was alright...wouldnt haf forgiven myself if i had got one scratch on 'her'.<br /><br />but then again Ira did say that guy was mentally retarded as he had always been like that...how do these ppl know the bus drivers...? just from taking bus rides daily...? oh well i prefer to walk and its surprising also coz i have taken the bus to uni more times the this month than i have ever taken since i came to moscow...so yeah there it stands...nothing beats a quiet peaceful walk where you are not rushing or struggling to squeeze in...get your chain of thoughts in order...<br /><br />the weather now is oh well how do i put it...?AWESOME!...<br />coz it snows when i am asleep and its clear when i am going out...the weather forecast applies to everyone but me and well the wind though 40 km/h has a way of hitting everyone else and totalli avoiding me...so yeah the weather is perfect for me...just hope the secret snow find its way to pile up coz I WANNA GO SNOWBOARDING!!! cant wait for that...<br /><br />gonna head off to bed now...a little ice on my knee should help but i really hope all will be well tomorrow. have ppl to face have myself to hit...reallly hard. need my knee to do all of it...<br /><br />nite and God bless!!<br />cheers!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-71591849743009632922008-12-17T12:55:00.001-08:002008-12-17T13:09:06.393-08:00insensitive...yeah when that word comes into your mind very often at least one person will appear in your mind...today i kinda made 3 ppl think of me like that...and the most painful thing was to hear 'her' indirectly say it...i can be ignorant of others feelings at times and well...the thing is i never mean most of the things i say...its kinda a gesture of sinical remark to show care and attention coz well i always thought a sinical remark is better than totally ignoring someone...right...? at least from where i kam from thats how it is...<br /><br />feel really bad...dunno why i keep doing it, knowing i am gonna hurt people and in the process hurt myself worse...i guess its my defense mechanism...thats how i have shieldd myself from pain all this while, looking at things around me, the best way is sometimes to totally recede allowing yourself a time to escape the situation where you will even have to put yourself into someones shoes...<br /><br />the pain ...well i like it...my whole life has been full of it...i just wish i can take away others' coz well wat i go through is really nothing nevertheless i never wanna see ppl around me get hurt...and if i am the cause of that pain, i dunno where else to have faith that i can somehow take every1's pain away...even i its a soul that i hurt, a tiny little soul it still hurts...<br /><br />insensitive...yeah i know it spells out my name clearly...for all its worth and all i am i am really, truly, deeply sorry...if i have hurt anyone, even unconsciously...especially 'you'<br /><br />have a nice night!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-6112988376926267412008-12-15T05:44:00.000-08:002008-12-15T06:22:15.479-08:00tales of winterits been a while since i last wrote here...i dunno never really like to write personal stuff and well let everyone know about it coz well, there is a reason its called 'personal stuff'.<br /><br />so its like 5 pm here now but it sure feels like abt 8pm in malaysia...the days are shorter hence all the reason to suffer while getting up, procrastinate getting outta bed as well as snoozing the one fella that can get you to school on time...it isnt half as cold as last year though. nevertheless ppl keep telling me..."its moscow, the worst is yet to come..." just hope it stays this way, coz well the weather is great now...anw colder and its gonna get uncomfortable....stll waiting for the snow to secretly come and lay itself so that i can go snowboarding...and then dissapear, without melting leaving the streets dry so that i can move without the conscience of stepping into a puddle of mud...<br /><br />i love it here...i really do...very little can i find to prove this is less than home and its like a whole new exciting place once you learn to love it...the people, well...they are the same everywhere...there are warm chaps who would never stop making your day brighter and well snobbish little pricks who are ever-ready to bring you down with them..<br /><br />i tried so much to hold on to something for so long and letting it go was the best thing thats happened to me in a long time...its like a breather...but even better with the joy<br />'she' brings into my life...i want this new step i take to work...its like i know how it makes me feel, i enjoy it and yet i still wanna put my doubts...she is special to me...this place in my heart that i can save for noone but her...<br /><br />that aside...my weekend was a blast that passed in 2 seconds...i dunno what happened...it just passed so fast i wasnt able to even catch it except for the little moments of lunch at morae, watching a classic, totally random movie 'scary movie', and well a little studying to sum up a complete weekend of a 2nd year...<br /><br />and yeah its Ana's b'dae today! happy birthday gal!<br />if i get the pics will show you who my little sister, the star queen is...next time...hopefully, soonish...<br /><br />cheers,<br />God bless ya ol!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-6899562170449682982008-12-12T15:06:00.001-08:002008-12-12T15:22:29.930-08:00not feeling tired...innitially i was really looking forward to the weekend to catch up with sleep...but then again i never got new blockmates, so yeah stuck with these noisy ppl for i dunno how long more.telling them to shut up once or twice or even once every 20 minutes isnt enough...these people can go on talkng the whole night, i duno about what or who but tey will be talking non stop, occasionally wetting the seater but yeah basically soundblasting the whole block till about 6 am. this routine has been going on for quite some time and these people never ever heard of the term of shut up! or consideration before...so yeah leave it as it is...<br /><br />but its like 2.20 am here and i am still not tired...have to wale up by 6 am for prayer meeting followed by handball practice and all and still i do not feel like sleeping...it could be the thought of anat exams coming up in 32 days time or the fact that i have 4 pending colloques and 2 razkazes in total...nah it cant be the things in my mind coz well i am never bothered by it...time will find itself solving things by itself as time passes, but yet there is this inner turmoil...something that i wish i can say it out here...the fact that i cant let myself to type those words clearly confirms my reason for a sleepless friday night...<br /><br />wish it can all be solved like an equation...i gave it my best shot and yet i wasnt enough...now,well i have to give it all i've got and something more, or else i am gonna lose out in pleasing my mind, body and soul and well, i will never accept the fact that there are 12 greater pyramids that made its name next to the sandcastle...so yeah...if all i've given is not enough, its time to give it something i have never brought on the platter...my heart...<br /><br />gonna try to settle for tossing and turning till i knock out, besides, i just love my bed...<br /><br />good day folks!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-34992198492108783362008-12-08T12:03:00.000-08:002008-12-08T12:12:57.405-08:00a nice pleasant song...well pauline sent me this song a couple of hours ago and i thought its worth sharing..<br />so yeah...enjoy...<br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' 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perminute now, pullups are at 7, 2.4 timing i dunno maybe an estimate of 11 mins...(not gonna hit my 8.55 anytime soon...maybe ever) shuttle run shld be the same or better considering the suicides and fitness drills we have been doing in basketball training...mite even get an under 9s timing...ha standing broadjump...definitely better...in other words i feel great about anaerobic fitness...but the aerobic, gotta work on it..<br /><br />and yeah about aerobic workout, how am i gonna do it if the coach says that i am like the smallest player there...he wants me to bulk up a little,,,thats why the bench press came in today. i rather haf small well toned muscles than big bulky muscles cos well later they are super hard to get rid off wen ur like 40 and everything starts to strech and sag...so yeah happy the way it is now...running gives the best full body workout still, dan and binh would agree...<br /><br />been a long time since i dunked...the good old days, but with my coach pushing me like this...i say will be able to in 2 months...? think they haf a holiday camp thing going on...really dunno what they talk about esp wen its all in russian...ah well if ned robinson can dunk over spud web at 5 ft 9 inches...come on man a 6 ft dude shld be able to dunk with less efford...ha<br /><br />still cant believe i am the smallest person in the team...if fariq is there then its 2nd smallest...ha, sorry bro...<br /><br />thats about it lah...still holding on to the glucose and protein supplements and yeah the cratin...if the time comes for me to go synthetic i will have to, but we all know wat happened the last time yeah...?lets not talk about it any further<br /><br />sports...the only other thing that keeps the world sane...<br />the currency...sweat!<br /><br />haf an awesome weekend...!<br />God bless!<br /><br />P.S. druncos...please have mercy tomoro nite...cheers!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-28136636013301161072008-12-04T11:27:00.001-08:002008-12-04T14:54:53.406-08:00!...traeh"the heart has reasons, that reasons cannot tell"-oth<br /><br />very often i tend to overlook,we all tend t overlook the fact that our heart makes the right choices all the time...a young boy might have loved his pet so much that nothing it can do can ever make him change his mind.even if it went wild and decided to bite him or nibble on his best cap, he would still think about what it means to him...no matter the damage, the fact that that little kid loved his pet, lets say pup so much will always cause him to reason forgiveness over hatred...and it gets me thinking..how often haf i trusted my heart instead of my head?<br />-only twice in my life and one of those times have caused me never to trust it again...at least wen i go with my head i get that few minutes of satisfaction, relief or maybe breathing space...nevertheless my heart tells me to believe otherwise...i wish a long run can clear my head if i get a chance to even go for one!<br /><br />sometimes we find ourselves in a maze in an absolute mist of things, but the solution is very often right there...next to you, or within you.after taking the plunge you realise you should have done that or should have seen that but all along there it was right there beside you. so what keeps us from reasoning...?hmmmh...? i believe we hafta say hello to our head once more, a little spice of ego, coupled with unsurpressable pride is what kept us from achieving what we sought out for in the first place...<br /><br />and then there is a question of the heart...all i have heard b4 is the heart lets us love people, lets us forgive, lets us move on...nobody told me about betrayal...doubtful anchor decisions...and most unforgivingly heartbreak when ALL comes apart...all i really want is that one right decision that will piece it together, give reason to live, give reason to die, give reason to go through it all...coz if at the end of the day, if i never find that missing piece, i dun wanna be drowned...not yet, not by my own heart...so its there i know...still finding a reason for it to continue beating...still finding that missing piece,,,still giving reasons instead of finding answers...<br /><br />'i am falling for someone,<br /> trying so hard to resist it,<br /> but its hard...<br /><br />i am not in control anymore,<br /> i want t so much<br /> and yet i am thinking,<br />is this the one?<br />will it last...?<br />do we feel the same?<br /><br />my heart is too fraculent<br />to be taken, given and broken again,<br />i hope i can wish it away,<br />this feeling,.<br />but; it simply will not go<br /><br />i am vulnerable<br />i haf fallen for this someone<br />i have fallen into the<br />trap of love or merely<br />just love<br />pure and sensitive<br />just a heart<br />filled with<br />love!'<br /><br />-duntellya-duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-73571355197401412392008-11-30T02:57:00.000-08:002008-11-30T07:20:18.488-08:00learn to love...you know the strangest things keep happening...its like the more i hate something or the more i resisit something the more He would challenge me to do it,get close to it...and the things i love...very often i hafta let it go...i guess its a way of saying 'i am committed' but its alsa kinda a way he sets my path right...i know what i want, iknow whats best for me but still, He knows wats even better for me...thats what amazes me the most...i hardly remove my posts, actually i only did it once or twice...cant really remember. but well i am kinda challenged to love the people i blogged about the last time...<br /><br />it started with a smile, and a handshake...and now i guess we're friends...and now i see, they arent so bad after all...the toilet seats are clean, they irritate me less and well the toiled is still always wet but i guess its gonna come to end soon...<br /><br />whats with me man...how did this happen...i mean whats happening to me...? anaand would probably think wats wrong with me...am i nuts or what...but i know its the right thing...nobody deserves to be hated...a little love wont hurt...besides, i am grudgeless...and happy!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-31143064020615027762008-11-25T13:23:00.000-08:002008-11-25T13:37:03.657-08:00egyptians!!!practically dumbasses!!<br />not to offend anyone in particularbut the 2 dumbest ppl and possibly 4 are egyptians...come on man if peeing all over the toilet seater isnt enough and using toiletries that do not belong to you, and using our cleaning equipment and damaging it, ruining the shower curtains not forgetting causing a total mess everyday which eventually resulted in the destruction of our block floor...these guys are justpractclly dumb!<br /><br />anaand i still persistent on yelling at them but i totally gave up...if giving them a shooting lesson isnt enough what more do they want...?<br />i wonder is this what they doin their country...in their homes...not getting your own stuff and using others and damaging it and totally acting as if everything was alright and playing plain innocent as if the heavensopened up for them...<br /><br />come on man...how cm people be that inconsiderate...! gts me boiling...its practicaly eryday that we hafta scold them!<br /><br />if the cleanliness isnt it the noise...omg the noise i tell u...i wonder what can 2 guys be doing at 3 am in the morning till the walls go shaking...u can imagine for yourself eh...dah lah budak budak ni pengotor lagi bising macam meriam bom! bom! bom!....teruk lah...and they can be so dumb...afterflooding the whole corridoor can still affort to ask me why the door cant open after kicking the washing machine pipe so conveniently...kesian kawan i shalu cantik kat bawah...juzt bot a new linonium for these monkeys to nicely give it a heavenly rinse...<br /><br />point dumb talking about these guys...it helps talking about it here...wish i had anaands patience...i so wanna terminate them!!!<br /><br />chill guys...this is as bad as my nervous breakdown gets...all better now...not gonna go arnd killing people...<br /><br />haf a good nite ya ol!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-11160174159494916462008-11-24T00:49:00.000-08:002008-11-24T01:01:10.022-08:00a meaningful story..<span style="color:#00cccc;">Take my Son</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">A wealthy man and his son loved to collect rare works of art. They had everything in their collection, from Picasso to Raphael. They would often sit together and admire the great works of art.When the Vietnam conflict broke out, the son went to war. He was very courageous and died in battle while rescuing another soldier. The father was notified and grieved deeply for his only son.About a month later, just before Christmas, there was a knock at the door. A young man stood at the door with a large package in his hands.He said, 'Sir, you don't know me, but I am the soldier for whom your son gave his life. He saved many lives that day, and he was carrying me to safety when a bullet struck him in the heart and he died instantly.He often talked about you, and your love for art.' The young man held out this package. 'I know this isn't much. I'm not really a great artist, but I think your son would have wanted you to have this.'The father opened the package. It was a portrait of his son, painted by the young man. </span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">He stared in awe at the way the soldier had captured the personality of his son in the painting. The father was so drawn to the eyes that his own eyes welled up with tears.. He thanked the young man and offered to pay him for the picture. 'Oh, no sir, I could never repay what your son did for me. It's a gift.'The father hung the portrait over his mantle. Every time visitors came to his home he took them to see the portrait of his son before he showed them any of the other great works he had collected.The man died a few months later. There was to be a great auction of his paintings </span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">Many influential people gathered, excited over seeing the great paintings and having an opportunity to purchase one for their collection.On the platform sat the painting of the son The auctioneer pounded his gavel. 'We will start thebidding with this picture of the son. Who will bid for this picture?'There was silence.Then a voice in the back of the room shouted, 'We want to see the famous paintings. Skip this one.'But the auctioneer persisted. 'Will somebody bid for this painting. Who will start the bidding? $100, $200?'Another voice angrily. 'We didn't come to see this painting. We came to see the Van Gogh's, theRembrandt's. Get on with the real bids!'But still the auctioneer continued. 'The son! The son!<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">Who'll take the son?'Finally, a voice came from the very back of the room. It was the longtime gardener of the man and his son. 'I'll give $10 for the painting.' Being a poor man, it was all he could afford.'We have $10, who will bid $20?''Give it to him for $10. Let's see the masters.' '$10 is the bid, won't someone bid $20?'The crowd was becoming angry. They didn't want the picture of the son. They wanted the more worthy investments for their collections. The auctioneer pounded the gavel. 'Going once, twice, SOLD for $10!'A man sitting on the second row shouted, 'Now let's get on with the collection!' The auctioneer laid down his gavel. 'I'm sorry, the auction is over..' 'What about the paintings?'</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"> 'I am sorry. When I was called to conduct this auction, I was told of a secret stipulation in the will. I was not allowed to reveal that stipulation until this time. Only the painting of the son would be auctioned. Whoever bought that painting would inherit the entire estate, including the paintings. The man who took the son gets everything!'God gave His son 2,000 years ago to die on the cross.</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"> Much like the auctioneer, His message today is: '</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">The son, the son, who'll take the son?'Because, you see, whoever takes the Son gets everything</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, WHO SO EVER BELIEVETH, SHALL HAVE ETERNAL LIFE....THAT' S LOVE</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">God Bless.</span>duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-89063283171850868942008-11-22T22:16:00.000-08:002008-11-22T22:30:15.482-08:00cavaliers at its peakand so it i said that a team with 20 wins in a row a season will never go on to win the nba title...let me tell u a secret...its not true...cos this year its gonna happen...the cav's already haf their 8th straight win in the bag beating the likes of other title contenders in their own home court...and everyone knows nobody can beat the cavs at home...not even the celtics or lakers...so yeah this year is the year of lebron james...all he needed was someone to draw attention away from him and we can see mo and delante shinning now...i dunno how he can keep bringing his 'a' game night after night...his passion, his determination is what i am striving for...<br /><br />talking about the king, we are having our 1st official basketbal tournament here in moscow since i arrived...dunno what its gonna be like or how rough its gonna be but if we play with our hearts i think its not a problem...ppl say ' for love of the game' and i say 'play your hearts out'...the difference is the latter will always derive results while the former will always derive fun no matter what the result is...so yeah it gets me thinking...a little of both would be a cocktail combination...<br /><br />not feeling too good right now...was having a fever last nyt...and played my futsal league with a splitting migraine...today its a little better...had my ice bath which is seeing my legs more rejuvenated so i just hope i can play my best later...dun wana let my team down...<br /><br />need all Your strength to play today!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-73452903031311030662008-11-19T03:10:00.000-08:002008-11-19T03:16:45.722-08:00team "hats-off"so we had a pretty good game today...everything came together...probably that extra pass on that day will make the difference...the ability to score while running the clock down is what makes a really good team...being calm and relaxed with maximum adrenaline pumping will be the difference on sunday...really hoping for the best now...we never played together b4 a month ago but somehow i feel the chemistry building really fast...just hope this is gonna be enough...<br /><br />i keep saying i am not a centre...never haf been but they all wanna claim tht i am...so we will see what happens wen i dont play centre...<br /><br />so people in moscow...remember to catch the action this sunday morning....see a team of akmal,billy,remy and fariq come together for the very 1st time...what happens, only the cool dude up in the clouds knows...<br /><br />cya then.<br />haf a great day!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-15601163284498989632008-11-13T14:18:00.000-08:002008-11-13T14:23:55.312-08:00a finite whine...and so i said it...been wanting to say it for a couple of weeks now and i did...it did not come out natural or the way i planned it but it did...<br /><br /> i tried wishing it away knowing that it could only bring me more pain and yet it still happened...the insecurities, the guilt as well as the crushed hope...might all come back to haunt me again...<br /><br />if only i had something that lasted, something real, something eternal rather than a few days, weeks or months or even worse, years....all i could wish for right now is that you are happy...coz if youre happy i am happy...duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-16479994452795095332008-11-08T13:54:00.000-08:002008-11-08T13:58:14.478-08:00saints vs geng malaysiait doesnt happen all too often...my legs felt great..just need more game time...was a timely defeat as we went down 2-1 to gm but it was a waking up call...more to come...more to expect...its just gonna get better...<br /><br />i love this game!<br /><br />cheers!duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-16495670640235820552008-11-04T08:31:00.000-08:002008-11-04T09:00:27.711-08:00whats new<div><br /><br /></div><div>and so its been some time since i wrote something personal here..</div><div><br /></div><div></div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5264847583901580690" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpB_0qqmHYv4Tdr7kORyJQ756NqCYc9lqRPlr4oMETzuOuRw7GX1VAxAmgn_ByDNT805VcQC4Lkk1YrA_Qi_T0cqFpbOS6WBMWUF1G9b0NaXoUn9nr6OwznaAKRZbVhcbw82srazxNKRW2/s400/DSC00908.JPG" border="0" /><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><div>well, my weekend was a blast...i settled quite abit of my curiosity...mainly in ikea...bought myself a new bed...a really good one that i assume is not gonna give me probs till i end my course...besides the orthopaedic frame is meant to be good for my back and posture...not only is this new bed longer and wider (for my 6 ft frame) its also thicker, cozier and well, as always, orangier...leave it at that...when i sleep for the 1st tym on it tonite i will know what the new bed is all about...</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>and well my trip to ikea was not only rewarding emotionally and physically but it also showed me how smart some creatures get...try a dog taking a metro...ha..its just sleeping btw...it knows wen to stop coz well, canines are known for their heightened senses ryt...?</div><br /><div></div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5264847847339403874" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuag4erYtxpvhy2Ua7FZUeMteHvG4LepM5_sFv9_caCQjwMQ5yALSYzDnr3Ryx0HZNLJ1p2tixtb6FWgxiXdK5R_Y7kex_pocp5NuD3AnQYZTt7HI-VZaBWOQxlW0U9OBH8w4gGnuGjOh_/s400/DSC00907.JPG" border="0" /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div>thats all for now lah i guess...gonna get back to my books...lotsa catching up to do...</div><div> </div><div>God bless ya ol!</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div></div>duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-42724367007717120262008-10-28T01:08:00.000-07:002008-10-28T01:41:41.185-07:00nba preview 2008/09<p><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dwQB_x6Q8bwTqjkigRzDAbFLfvpVBlGqRWobbkFJcI8On7Ryc_Y9JhcXHzHCGBJoffPwKcWt1qImLQK_x6b0A' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></p><p>a lebron team is a champion team...the year of the king...big 3 vs lebron...u know who jumps higher,shoots higher and dunks higher than anyone else....</p><p><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dw9Y_igZAwN6LobahnKyZlLdHIw73RAG62BUaIYJsuS-34e69mZTxA9_ZT2HD3EMN8DEQihTiKQJKhZu7LbzA' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></p><p> </p><p>i know youre expecting a performance from the bi 3 in lakers with kobe in the middle of that, but check out oden..expect nothing les than a show...</p><p> </p><p> </p><p>so thats baically the 2 videos i managed to get...another game that i wouldnt miss is the bucks bulls game...a beautifully pieced team vs a young team perfect to make history...no comments on this one except its gonna be pretty tight but a high scoring game withboth teams focussing more on offence rather than defence.</p>duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631823405228257049.post-42127453244191732492008-10-27T14:01:00.000-07:002008-10-27T14:10:26.844-07:00judging...you know when you open a new book the first thing you probably notice is the publisher...nope...why is it that wen we go for a book or randomly open a book after probably reading the synopsis we just flip the page to something in the middle to impress us and if it doesnt it is either left behind or not even given a second thought...well its a normal act i guess...even when we deal with people we can see ourselves juging others from the little that we see...its like opening the middle part of the book and assuming tat the rest of the book is gonna be like that...the story migh change...just like ppl do and well there might be more to that story or that person that you could miss out...<br /><br />so the next time u wanna judge people...think twice...or at least a little longer.just think what it would be like to be judged...give others a chance and you might see that its joyful to see new things in people,in things and in every path in our lives...<br /><br />take care then,<br /><br />PS...i am not responsible if i ter-named someone...its just a random scribble in my jotter.duntellyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01755389730865919246noreply@blogger.com0